it just makes sense [a vent]

[pelicanportal]

logically. forced-living bagguts screech at me "life is precious", but if it is then where are you when anyone needs help? this just makes the most sense. i cant deal with this anymore. it is completely over.

 

[Archerbanshee]

Same here. You see, I have a small debt.

During this period, I've learnt from my life that the basis of love is money. That's not what I wanted. So after clearing my debt, I intend to switch off and cut ties with everyone I know, goto a mountain side and have 100mg Sodium Nitrate mixed in water.

Sound cool ain't it.

 

[pelicanportal]

living on borrowed time. i actually think i have two avenues on tolerable ways out. one is the dream, or as close as possible to it. sn is the other of course. the dream method i think is becoming slowly less impossible, to extremely risky but possible.

life circumstances randomly put me in an industry that uses preferred "dream" method. i kept thst knowledge in the back of my mind, but i inched forward this week unexpectedly when someone naively just spilled key information to me, unprompted. so it is a patience game now. will i ever get an opportunity? i suppose i am living on borrowed time until i can find out. it feels a little divine, like divine intervention. god either hates me so much he wants me to die too, or dying was always a part of the plan for reasons i do not get to know in this life. but i feel like things may be piecing together in this way for a reason.


and if that all goes to shit, then i guess there's still sn.

continuing to have hope at my age with my circumstances is a joke. i am the clown. i give in now, and simply must wait for the right moment to act.

"laugh, and the world laughs with you. weep, and you weep alone."

 

[scoba32]

living on borrowed time. i actually think i have two avenues on tolerable ways out. one is the dream, or as close as possible to it. sn is the other of course. the dream method i think is becoming slowly less impossible, to extremely risky but possible.

life circumstances randomly put me in an industry that uses preferred "dream" method. i kept thst knowledge in the back of my mind, but i inched forward this week unexpectedly when someone naively just spilled key information to me, unprompted. so it is a patience game now. will i ever get an opportunity? i suppose i am living on borrowed time until i can find out. it feels a little divine, like divine intervention. god either hates me so much he wants me to die too, or dying was always a part of the plan for reasons i do not get to know in this life. but i feel like things may be piecing together in this way for a reason.


and if that all goes to shit, then i guess there's still sn.

continuing to have hope at my age with my circumstances is a joke. i am the clown. i give in now, and simply must wait for the right moment to act.

"laugh, and the world laughs with you. weep, and you weep alone."

bro wdym the dream