Venting It hurts being left because of my mental health.

[kosmischerunfall]

Because of my own stupidity I always get left. My negativity makes them all want to leave me which is understandable.

In this mental state of mine I can not be ever loved.

I don't want to be in a relationship where they leave me.

I just want to be loved, cared for, hugged, snuggled with.

Why did God punish me so hard? Wanting love, loving soooo hard and much but me being mentally ill and people not being on my level just calls for disaster.

I had to do something bad, to get this life.

I wish I had a husband that would never leave..

 

[guy123]

Please do not give up, it can get better. I felt the same as you but there are people out there that want to love you

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I used to have similar feelings and desperation. Eventually it all burned out of me and I can't care anymore. You might get to that point too. I prefer being empty, numb, and dead inside, to the torture of caring and wanting. Or your path may be different.