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SaltN'Light777

SaltN'Light777

Psalm 139
May 31, 2019
9
@SaltN'Light777: please stop and think about how selfish this is, and how you're not considering some of the other aspects of your religion.

If you believe your God is going to condemn anyone, no matter what they did, to endless torture after death, you are worshiping a monster. It is simply not possible for any finite being with finite powers to commit infinite sins in a finite timespan. The only being who could even conceivably merit eternity in Hell is, ironically, God himself, as no other being by definition possesses infinite life/power/reach/etc. t..dw commit infinite evil with.

I am glad you've recovered, but beware that it hasn't turned you into something worse.
I am sorry but you clearly don't know who God is. I suggest you study scripture. Start with book of John. Otherwise please state scholarly sources to accusations you make. Not your own opinions on who you think God is based on feelings of hate towards HIM
And let me guess you believe in a vengeful God that will judge your actions if you didn't get right with your God?

Look I believe in God and Jesus too, but I am a universalist, kind of like new age. So I believe that we create our own reality, and that death is just the beginning of a transition to the afterlife with many dimensions to be explored. And one day we will come back and reincarnate. Death should be celebrated because it's just a transition to another existence.

Hardly nobody that chooses suicide does so nonchalantly, I am sure OP has thought about this a lot.

Ultimately I want to end suffering in the world so good for you for finding that in your life. What worked for you may not work for someone else. And vis versa. So good for you for finding peace in your life. But your path is not everyone's path. So to each his own.

If OP wants to give his life to God right now then good for him, and if he wants to exit life at this time, then that is his choice. Nobody here is encouraging his suicide. Any good luck comments and such is just a reflection of OP's original desire to exit life right now.
You can't believe in both. They both can't be right.
"In jail the God Lord placed his hand on me" :pfff::pfff:
It's ok. I forgive you. I know you don't know any better.
 
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May 27, 2019
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When I was 10 yrs old, I watched my mother fall over dead. My brother and I had to move in with my alcoholic dad. I had PTSD from my mom death. 17 yrs later I lost my brother to car accident. Tried drinking myself to death on daily basis. I Jumped in front of police car after I led them on a high speed chase. In jail the God Lord placed his hand on me. I was delivered from PTSDs and alcoholism. No more depression. I have joy in life. THERE IS HOPE IN THIS LIFE!!!!!!!
Hi SaltN'Light777, pardon my manners, I didn't welcome you to the forum earlier in my post, that you may have missed.

I asked you and I quote....

Do you mind me asking what brought you to this website then? Just curious.
Thanks for your attention in this matter, oh and welcome :smiling:
 
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Waiting for the last tear to fall...
May 23, 2019
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Lord, please protect me from Your followers!!!
 
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SaltN'Light777

SaltN'Light777

Psalm 139
May 31, 2019
9
Do you mind me asking what brought you to this website then? Just curious.
Is this not a pro choice site? I choose to live. I also am quite aware that when people are deeply depressed with out hope that they don't always think things through. They look for quick way out . Not realizing that the fog clears. I know this from experience. I just gave a brief summary of my life. You have no idea the pain I gone through. For example I nearly blew my brains out if someone hadn't knocked the gun away. I have more life stories believe me. It gets better. But you know what I have gained wisdom and character from these experiences. I like to share what I learned to help others.
 
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crimea_river

Experienced
May 27, 2019
210
Is this not a pro choice site? I choose to live. I also am quite aware that when people are deeply depressed with out hope that they don't always think things through. They look for quick way out . Not realizing that the fog clears. I know this from experience. I just gave a brief summary of my life. You have no idea the pain I gone through. For example I nearly blew my brains out if someone hadn't knocked the gun away. I have more life stories believe me. It gets better. But you know what I have gained wisdom and character from these experiences. I like to share what I learned to help others.
Thank you for your reply. I'm not sure if you thought I was being confrontaional, I wasn't being. Your quote about me not having any idea of your previous pain gave me that impression. Of course I don't, similarly none of us truly know what the other endures, that uniqueness, we all share.

My point (if there is one) is that this site is generally sought out by people that are generally in a dire situation, I myself am one of those. You seem to be in a reasonably happy place now and I wondered what made you look for the site in the first place, that is all.
 
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SaltN'Light777

SaltN'Light777

Psalm 139
May 31, 2019
9
I am happy that you feel hope and joy in your life and are just trying to offer support but there will be many who have no hope and will not be convinced.personally i have no hope and do not even know where to begin to find it.! X
I thought like that once. Thought there was no hope, but things change. Some may not listen to me but some will. So if some will then I care enough to help them find hope. I follow the Golden rule. Love your neighbor
 
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LuxelDrief

Member
May 29, 2019
25
Yeah, got some metamizol for headache, as fasting tends to give me some mild disconfort in the long run... Won't take it right now though.
 
SaltN'Light777

SaltN'Light777

Psalm 139
May 31, 2019
9
Thank you for your reply. I'm not sure if you thought I was being confrontaional, I wasn't being. Your quote about me not having any idea of your previous pain gave me that impression. Of course I don't, similarly none of us truly know what the other endures, that uniqueness, we all share.

My point (if there is one) is that this site is generally sought out by people that are generally in a dire situation, I myself am one of those.
I am sorry what I meant is I am here because I was in the dark once and I like to share my light. Things can change through faith. I am living proof . How can I not share hope when I was once hopeless.
 
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crimea_river

Experienced
May 27, 2019
210
I am sorry what I meant is I am here because I was in the dark once and I like to share my light. Things can change through faith. I am living proof . How can I not share hope when I was once hopeless.
Fair enough. I see what you mean and thank you for sharing it with me. What I was really asking though was what drove you to open your favourite search engine and look for the website in the first place? A need to help those that you perceive are in a similar position(s) that you've been in?

Because, if the latter's the case, you couldn'y possibly understand, by your own admission, we can't know the pain that each other goes through/endures.
 
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Apr 9, 2019
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I am sorry what I meant is I am here because I was in the dark once and I like to share my light. Things can change through faith. I am living proof . How can I not share hope when I was once hopeless.
I don't want to hear about about your magical boss that cured your depression. Stop derailing OPs thread with your empty preaching or you will be reported.
 
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thishappened

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Apr 3, 2019
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I'm sorry for everything that brought you to this point. You seemed so kind, I wish we could have talked more. If you decide not go through with it, you will be welcomed back with open arms. Take your time to think as much as you'd like to. Maybe consider the surgery for the last time. Either way Im sending you lots of virtual hugs and I truly wish you the best.
 
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Alan James

Arcanist
Apr 11, 2019
408
I am sorry but you clearly don't know who God is.

If the gods really existed - they would be guilty of all the horrors and sufferings, of all living beings, and there can be no excuses for this, and there are no sufficiently weighty reasons. I have never understood why people worship those who consider them their slaves and lower beings that need a shepherd? Please don't consider this as some kind of disrespect or insult, but if God really exist (what I do not believe), then there are those who are against him, the "opposition" - in this case it would be logical to join them.
 
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SaltN'Light777

SaltN'Light777

Psalm 139
May 31, 2019
9
Lord, please protect me from Your followers!!!
I am very interested in where you got your beliefs about God. Especially condemning people .
8Philip said to him, "Lord, show us the Father, and it is enough for us." 9Jesus said to him, "Have I been with you so long, and you still do not know me, Philip? Whoever has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, 'Show us the Father'?8Philip said to him, "Lord, show us the Father, and it is enough for us." 9Jesus said to him, "Have I been with you so long, and you still do not know me, Philip? Whoever has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, 'Show us the Father'? -John 14:8-11
Jesus definitely does not fit your description of what you think God's character is. I forget did Jesus condemn that woman who was about to be stoned for committing adultry?
If the gods really existed - they would be guilty of all the horrors and sufferings, of all living beings, and there can be no excuses for this, and there are no sufficiently weighty reasons. I have never understood why people worship those who consider them their slaves and lower beings that need a shepherd? Please don't consider this as some kind of disrespect or insult, but if God really exist (what I do not believe), then there are those who are against him, the "opposition" - in this case it would be logical to join them.
Who are the "they" that would be guilty?
Fair enough. I see what you mean and thank you for sharing it with me. What I was really asking though was what drove you to open your favourite search engine and look for the website in the first place? A need to help those that you perceive are in a similar position(s) that you've been in?

Because, if the latter's the case, you couldn'y possibly understand, by your own admission, we can't know the pain that each other goes through/endures.
I came here because of my faith in Christ. I am to live like He has. I didn't suffer in vain. Christ went to the sick and oppressed, those who are suffering. Not those who thought they are righteous or perfect.
 
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Alan James

Arcanist
Apr 11, 2019
408
Who are the "they" that would be guilty?

God or gods (if there are many), and angels.

Nobody asked this "God" to create all this and nobody asked us whether we want to be created, whether we want to exist.
 
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SaltN'Light777

SaltN'Light777

Psalm 139
May 31, 2019
9
If the gods really existed - they would be guilty of all the horrors and sufferings, of all living beings, and there can be no excuses for this, and there are no sufficiently weighty reasons. I have never understood why people worship those who consider them their slaves and lower beings that need a shepherd? Please don't consider this as some kind of disrespect or insult, but if God really exist (what I do not believe), then there are those who are against him, the "opposition" - in this case it would be logical to join them.
Do you believe a book could write itself? My guess is your answer is no. DNA is book of coded messages on how to make body parts. Who do explain uniformity in the universe or basis for logic.
 
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LuxelDrief

Member
May 29, 2019
25
Well... This thread became a mess lol :pfff:
 
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SaltN'Light777

SaltN'Light777

Psalm 139
May 31, 2019
9
God or gods (if there are many), and angels.

Nobody asked this "God" to create all this and nobody asked us whether we want to be created, whether we want to exist.
There is sin and suffering because man used free will and brought it here. If someone chooses freely to take their own life then others are affected and suffer. God has every right to create what he wants to create. Did you ever hear the verse Jesus wept ? Do you know why He wept. God loves you and doesn't leave you alone to suffer. He will carry you through it all gotta do is ask Him. You have a big misconception of who God is. He is not some hateful angry being in the sky looking to send everyone to hell. The sad thing is people will hear a little bits of the Bible and use it out of context to create some hateful being. It's usually not a matter of the mind but of the heart that people oppose God.
 
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Do you believe a book could write itself? My guess is your answer is no. DNA is book of coded messages on how to make body parts. Who do explain uniformity in the universe or basis for logic.

Did you find this website on the news and decide to come here and be a hero?
 
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SaltN'Light777

SaltN'Light777

Psalm 139
May 31, 2019
9
Well, I definitely didn't bond with anyone here because I just arrived, but being honest I never really pretended to hang around, but I feel like I got too much good info on this site to just absorb it and not leave at least a thank you.

So yeah, hopefully it all goes well today... I just got home and I already have my schedule:

5pm: Start 8h fasting
0am: Take 4x200mg Cimetidine
0:30am: Take 40mg Metoclopramide(oral solution)
1am: Take roughly 22g SN(will be using a 15ml and a 7.5ml measurement cups, I guess that's enough)

So, as a lot of people have questions about this method's effect on the body, I will try my best to post here until I feel like I am about to pass out, as I pretend to log off to not get this site in possible trouble.
You have purpose my friend. You weren't created for nothing. I care about you and I know God does.
Did you find this website on the news and decide to come here and be a hero?
I know of this site because someone I mentor use to be on here. Glory is given to God not me. Why does me wanting help someone bother you? Do you not care for others?
 
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Rocksandsand

Rocksandsand

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May 26, 2019
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I don't want to hear about about your magical boss that cured your depression. Stop derailing OPs thread with your empty preaching or you will be reported.

+1

OP is doing something pretty significant today. They came here, and started a thread about their experience. I suggest we get back on track. SaltN'Light appears to be blocked now. Let's give OP some respect please.
 
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Username786

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May 4, 2019
17
Well... This thread became a mess lol :pfff:
Sorry this shit got so derailed. I appreciate you reporting back on the method though, and I'm sure there are plenty of others here who want to hear your experience. Good luck and I hope you find your peace.
 
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LuxelDrief

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May 29, 2019
25
Alright, 4x200mg Tagamet taken.
Took some dipyrone for slight headache because of fasting.
40mg Meto taken
At the end I decided to mix SN in 70ml of water. 10 minutes to go
 
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May 21, 2019
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Well, I definitely didn't bond with anyone here because I just arrived, but being honest I never really pretended to hang around, but I feel like I got too much good info on this site to just absorb it and not leave at least a thank you.

So yeah, hopefully it all goes well today... I just got home and I already have my schedule:

5pm: Start 8h fasting
0am: Take 4x200mg Cimetidine
0:30am: Take 40mg Metoclopramide(oral solution)
1am: Take roughly 22g SN(will be using a 15ml and a 7.5ml measurement cups, I guess that's enough)

So, as a lot of people have questions about this method's effect on the body, I will try my best to post here until I feel like I am about to pass out, as I pretend to log off to not get this site in possible trouble.

Are you going to keep us updated on how you feel after taking the SN?
 
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Cloudz

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May 29, 2019
32
Still there brother?
 
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May 11, 2019
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Meto can have some nasty side effects, right? So, i see two options:
He took way too much meto, its side effects kicked in and he wasn't able to drink SN; or
He took way too much meto, its side effects kicked in and he was able to drink SN before it happened
 
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May 31, 2019
36
Although my comment is far too late... I hope you found your peace, Luxel. I created my account when I came across your last update, but I didn't get through in time.
 
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