Venting It feels wrong

[ropeburns&migranes]

It feels wrong to want new friends. I know I'm going to end it soon so why should I bother opening myself up to more people when I'll be gone soon? It feels wrong to pay for my university classes too, I won't even make it to the end of the semester so why bother? There's no point when I know I'll be gone soon

 

[MyShadow]

I read and responded to your other post and have a feeling that, despite how you feel, that you are hesitant about ending your life. Maybe lean into that a bit.

 

[ropeburns&migranes]

I read and responded to your other post and have a feeling that, despite how you feel, that you are hesitant about ending your life. Maybe lean into that a bit.

I think that might be the worst part of all of this. I know I want to do it but there are things holding me back. On the flip side if I continue going on I will always feel the pull of suicide. Thank you for reading my posts

 

[MyShadow]

I think that might be the worst part of all of this. I know I want to do it but there are things holding me back. On the flip side if I continue going on I will always feel the pull of suicide. Thank you for reading my post.

Have you ever thought about trying to sort out why you have these feelings?

 

[ropeburns&migranes]

Have you ever thought about trying to sort out why you have these feelings?

Countless times, was pushed to therapy after my first attempt but it didn't help unfortunately.

 

[MyShadow]

Countless times, was pushed to therapy after my first attempt but it didn't help unfortunately.

It's a process and not an easy one at that. Maybe consider giving it a chance before you do something that it irreversible.

 

[failedmind]

I feel the way same. I feel like there's no point because I'll be gone soon anyway. Ive pushed all of my other friends away for that reason too. Haven't talked to them in about a year. No point if Im gonna be dead. Im sorry you're struggling too