It doesn't matter

[weishenme]

It doesn't matter, like anything at all. No one cares, if you die or live people will continue their live, maybe they will think about it one week or two idk, but at the end of the day u are just a number, it doesn't matter what u feel it only matters what u do. Cs when people see u at ur worst like all the time they won't ask, they won't care, but if u ctb, they will start to regret about things they dgaf about it. I really think that sucks, that they only care after the things are done and there are no things to do about it. But what can I do? When I am the same about other people, I don't really care about them, I dont even care about me.

I really hard that I expect that people would do things for me when I wouldn't, I hate that I crave the feeling of being loved, of having friends, or to be happy, to be really happy. I'm really miserable.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

The mindset I follow is, nobody will truly be able to be there for you at every moment. So you should be there for yourself. You should tell yourself the kind words you would love to hear and love and appreciate yourself. Because you deserve it, so if someone else won't be that sweet and caring person for you. Be that person for yourself.

 

[Lapdog6795]

We're selfish creatures like any other form of life. Nature has only two goals: survival and reproduction. Anything else we attach to life is just a story. We build stories because we can't accept that life is about only these 2 things.

One look at history and you'll see that since the beginning, life has been nothing but a massacre of madness.

Nothing is inherently interesting or compelling. It's our perception/story of those things that makes them whatever they're.

You have 2 choices:

1. don't accept the reality, be depressive or live like one, and maybe die by suicide when you're fed up
2. accept the reality, distract/sublimate, thrive temporarily like normies do, and die eventually

I'm slowly leaning towards first one btw.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry you are feeling so miserable.