Tionally
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- Jul 5, 2023
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I've fucked my life but not beyond repair.
I didn't expect to be alive right now so I guess that's why I didn't care about the future. I can't stop crying right now but maybe that's good since I've had anhedonia for a while and crying means feeling something.
I can't keep on feeling sorry for myself and posting sad vents about how nothing matter, I wanna die blah blah
it really doesn't matter cause nothing gets better just because of writing this shit here. maybe venting's good sometimes but I think I overvented.
anyway it's not that bad I can probably overcome my problems I just have mental issues but don't we all?? either way I'm leaving this place and no matter how shitty I feel I won't post. I have to start actually trying and maybe I'll get over it. Idk. it probably won't really get better but maybe it will. I don't know. maybe I'll ctb either way (if so then I will come back and make a final post before doing so)
so that's it I guess. I'm leaving. I can't say for sure I won't come back with another post about how everything is terrible but I don't think I will. maybe I will break that promise I don't know.
either way thanks for everyone here. i learned about SN etc here so that's a plus. people who commented on my posts seemed nice. not that I really made any meaningful connections here but enough to remember some people.
I also liked reading other people's responses when I felt bad so maybe it was helpful idk. thanks for the nice words I suppose
soooo bye. hope I will finally start living and solve my problems. either way you won't probably know unless I decide to ctb.
thanks and goodbye
I didn't expect to be alive right now so I guess that's why I didn't care about the future. I can't stop crying right now but maybe that's good since I've had anhedonia for a while and crying means feeling something.
I can't keep on feeling sorry for myself and posting sad vents about how nothing matter, I wanna die blah blah
it really doesn't matter cause nothing gets better just because of writing this shit here. maybe venting's good sometimes but I think I overvented.
anyway it's not that bad I can probably overcome my problems I just have mental issues but don't we all?? either way I'm leaving this place and no matter how shitty I feel I won't post. I have to start actually trying and maybe I'll get over it. Idk. it probably won't really get better but maybe it will. I don't know. maybe I'll ctb either way (if so then I will come back and make a final post before doing so)
so that's it I guess. I'm leaving. I can't say for sure I won't come back with another post about how everything is terrible but I don't think I will. maybe I will break that promise I don't know.
either way thanks for everyone here. i learned about SN etc here so that's a plus. people who commented on my posts seemed nice. not that I really made any meaningful connections here but enough to remember some people.
I also liked reading other people's responses when I felt bad so maybe it was helpful idk. thanks for the nice words I suppose
soooo bye. hope I will finally start living and solve my problems. either way you won't probably know unless I decide to ctb.
thanks and goodbye
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