Venting It doesn’t make sense for me anymore

[itsmeagain]

I'm trying to be good but I always end up disappointing the people around me. All the friends I met outside of SS are drug addicts or abusive. I only made it this far with a dream that I am not even chasing anymore. I'm not good enough for the few people that love me.

I'm so sorry for failing the people that care about me. I wish someone would choose me, but I finally understand why nobody ever does.

There's a depression check to be functional in this world, and if you fail, the rest of your life will snowball.

I'm sorry for all that thought I was good enough to mean something to them

I failed as a person. I really did.

 

[hopeifindmyself]

What dreams are you not chasing anymore ?
What makes you think you failed people ?

 

[eupdplishlp]

I'm trying to be good but I always end up disappointing the people around me. All the friends I met outside of SS are drug addicts or abusive. I only made it this far with a dream that I am not even chasing anymore. I'm not good enough for the few people that love me.

I'm so sorry for failing the people that care about me. I wish someone would choose me, but I finally understand why nobody ever does.

There's a depression check to be functional in this world, and if you fail, the rest of your life will snowball.

I'm sorry for all that thought I was good enough to mean something to them

I failed as a person. I really did.

I'm also interested in what day dreams your not chasing anymore. could you also elaborate on what you mean by depression check of the world?

 

[katara]

This made me get a little watery eyed to read. I'm so sorry bc I see we've both been on this site for years. It sounds like you should've had some better friends or better people in your life. Maybe if we were friends things could've been better. What was your dream?

 

[itsmeagain]

This made me get a little watery eyed to read. I'm so sorry bc I see we've both been on this site for years. It sounds like you should've had some better friends or better people in your life. Maybe if we were friends things could've been better. What was your dream?

My dream was to be part of this company I really loved. Work my way up and get accepted. Have a dream job where I could do localization for a big company, or make a big production or do acting. But I keep applying and trying to get the things I want and it doesn't work. Now I just want enough money to take a mental health month and work on myself, but now I think that only happens when you're a kid, haha. I'm sorry to be late to the response—thank you for caring enough to drop a response.