I'm a pretty impulsive person so instead of planning like a lot of people do, I've been waiting for the moment that i feel at my lowest so i can finally ctb without any regrets of doing it. I haven't been able to get my hands into SN because it's not shipped to my country, and my only success guaranteed method right now is chugging up a bottle of clorox. I already know how it should feel like and what symptoms should i experience if i went with this method, and it's my best option at the time.
The thing is, is literally the middle of the day (4pm), my whole family is awake and I'm not really sure where should i do it. Do i just lay in my bed and wait, or do i go out to any places i know are pretty chill and drink the whole thing there, with the potential chance of being kidnapped/ any other dangerous thing? Not that I could care about that if i was unconscious, but what if i ever were to wake up?
I'm feeling unsure just because of this. I'm considering doing it at home, at nightime (like 2am?) and just let it be while everyone's asleep. I just don't know if i will have the strength to do it at that time. Or if i should do it and go back to bed or wait in the bathroom.
Any advice? What would you do in this situation?
The thing is, is literally the middle of the day (4pm), my whole family is awake and I'm not really sure where should i do it. Do i just lay in my bed and wait, or do i go out to any places i know are pretty chill and drink the whole thing there, with the potential chance of being kidnapped/ any other dangerous thing? Not that I could care about that if i was unconscious, but what if i ever were to wake up?
I'm feeling unsure just because of this. I'm considering doing it at home, at nightime (like 2am?) and just let it be while everyone's asleep. I just don't know if i will have the strength to do it at that time. Or if i should do it and go back to bed or wait in the bathroom.
Any advice? What would you do in this situation?
