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lovelulu

lovelulu

even the iron still fears the rot.
Jan 3, 2026
147
I know this is a form of self harm obviously, but it still feels stupid. Yesterday, I got spiked in the face with a volleyball. I have glasses so it created a small bruise on the side of my nose. A few hours later after it happened and I saw the bruise, I just got the urge to get an even worse bruise. I got my phone and started beating my eye (directly under it) until it started to bruise. I wasn't sure if that really was gonna do anything but once I looked, it was starting to get a bit irritated so that fueled me on more. I kept hitting under my eye until it bruised pretty badly. Now, fast forward to today, I cant stop hitting myself with solid items. Literally anything random. I use the bathroom? I hit my eye with the air freshener. Im in the shower? I hit my eye with the shampoo bottle. The pain honestly isnt much to me at all that im not really doing it for the pain, im doing it for the bruise—for the looks of it.
 
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imontheloose

imontheloose

Aspiring corpse
Jan 15, 2025
174
Not exactly SH to me. I really only consider SH to be intentional harm committed to oneself with the goal of inflicting harm/pain. If your goal isn't to inflict pain, then I wouldn't really call it SH. Again, this is my own useless definition of SH just like everyone else's. I don't think it's weird. There's people who masturbate whilst hanging themselves, I'd call that pretty weird.
 
GroundControl

GroundControl

Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Feb 3, 2024
79
This is self harm by dictionary definition. Self harm is the act of causing oneself harm. Harm can mean pain, or mental damage, or physical damage. Bruising is physical damage. Even if you are intending for the look of it, it's still actively hurting yourself.

(I know your first line says you understand this is self harm, but the previous response ticked me off and I didn't want you to feel invalidated)

Onto your question: I guess self harm, to mentally healthy individuals, would be inherently weird. But bruising yourself isn't an uncommon form of self harm. You are not alone.
 
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fedup1982

Wizard
Jul 17, 2025
601
I feel bad, the way you wrote it made me chuckle even though I have every sympathy for people who self harm šŸ˜… but yes I agree it's definitely self harm. Be kind to yourself. It's definitely worth seeing a psychologist or psychiatrist about this
 
lovelulu

lovelulu

even the iron still fears the rot.
Jan 3, 2026
147
This is self harm by dictionary definition. Self harm is the act of causing oneself harm. Harm can mean pain, or mental damage, or physical damage. Bruising is physical damage. Even if you are intending for the look of it, it's still actively hurting yourself.

(I know your first line says you understand this is self harm, but the previous response ticked me off and I didn't want you to feel invalidated)

Onto your question: I guess self harm, to mentally healthy individuals, would be inherently weird. But bruising yourself isn't an uncommon form of self harm. You are not alone.
thanks, the previous response rubbed me the wrong way too.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Warlock
Dec 24, 2025
780
well i hit myself until i bruise with a shoe. i think all self harm can be classified as weird anyways. i do it for the satisfaction of seeing myself bruised too but its mostly about pain and coping with distress. i notice when the bruises fade i dont last long without wanting to make new ones.
 
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joey2424

joey2424

Member
Nov 2, 2025
99
This is self harm by dictionary definition. Self harm is the act of causing oneself harm. Harm can mean pain, or mental damage, or physical damage. Bruising is physical damage. Even if you are intending for the look of it, it's still actively hurting yourself.

(I know your first line says you understand this is self harm, but the previous response ticked me off and I didn't want you to feel invalidated)

Onto your question: I guess self harm, to mentally healthy individuals, would be inherently weird. But bruising yourself isn't an uncommon form of self harm. You are not alone.
Ya I just want to reiterate this response. It is self harm. And it's not weird, but if you're hurting and you're able to seek help, then please do that. I'm sure the earlier you intervene on this kind of instinct, the better.
 
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ConfusedClouds

Mage
Mar 9, 2024
531
I also poke/prod existing wounds or bruises or soreness to help ground myself. The sensation of feeling 'something' is comforting/reassuring to me. I don't often deliberately create the injuries in recent times, but I'm pretty outdoorsy and active and sporty so have often got something healing.
 
pax420

pax420

I'm so goddamn problematic
Jan 19, 2026
133
Ground control said it best and it pissed me off too. But like imontheloose also said "that's his/her own useless definition of sh". Everybody is entitled to their own opinion. But I don't consider other peoples opinions or ideas or thoughts weird, just other people's stuff. I used to sh by bashing my head into walls or door jams, not to harm or hurt myself, just to feel something, anything. I used to cut myself and watch the blood run down my arms into the ground as a way to relieve pressure and feel good, not to harm or hurt myself. They have a name for hanging oneself and masturbating, it's called auto-eroticism(sorry about that he spelling if it's wrong). I don't do that but I don't think it's weird either. Just some other peoples thing.
 
deadngoresurgery

deadngoresurgery

Jezebel
Jan 10, 2026
70
I know this is a form of self harm obviously, but it still feels stupid. Yesterday, I got spiked in the face with a volleyball. I have glasses so it created a small bruise on the side of my nose. A few hours later after it happened and I saw the bruise, I just got the urge to get an even worse bruise. I got my phone and started beating my eye (directly under it) until it started to bruise. I wasn't sure if that really was gonna do anything but once I looked, it was starting to get a bit irritated so that fueled me on more. I kept hitting under my eye until it bruised pretty badly. Now, fast forward to today, I cant stop hitting myself with solid items. Literally anything random. I use the bathroom? I hit my eye with the air freshener. Im in the shower? I hit my eye with the shampoo bottle. The pain honestly isnt much to me at all that im not really doing it for the pain, im doing it for the bruise—for the looks of it.
it is. thats how i would self harm
 
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Idkwhattopick

Member
Aug 29, 2024
71
Not exactly SH to me. I really only consider SH to be intentional harm committed to oneself with the goal of inflicting harm/pain. If your goal isn't to inflict pain, then I wouldn't really call it SH. Again, this is my own useless definition of SH just like everyone else's. I don't think it's weird. There's people who masturbate whilst hanging themselves, I'd call that pretty weird.
Self harm takes many forms and this is an invalidating way of putting it
 
aRose

aRose

Tired AF
Jan 18, 2026
323
I used to walk the street and just drag my hands across concrete and smash them into sign posts. Self harm has many forms.
 
SuicIdiot

SuicIdiot

Chasing the Bus
Oct 19, 2024
34
Self harm can come in so many forms really. I used to have sex with random people as a way to feel something. Or sometimes I put myself in situations I know will trigger me which I think is also a form of self harm. I'm also partial to cutting and recently, burning. I call is tangible control… like seeing that you're able to do something. Seeing that you are alive, that you can do shit. Idk.
 

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