Personally, I don't know when I'll commit suicide. Could be years from now. I was previously dead-set on it but a couple months ago I was talking to someone (who also happens to be on this forum, though we met elsewhere before they signed up (didn't introduce them to it or mention that I was on here prior to them signing up, for what that's worth)) and they briefly reawakened a fear of death that I had previously gotten over, to the point of daily panic attacks.
I joined this site because I wanted a space to talk about my mental state, including my constant, daily at that point, suicidal thoughts, without being hit with unwelcome toxic positivity. That has not changed, even if I am more unsure about when I will commit suicide than I was when I signed up.