Is there anywhere public and accepted we can upload our suicide notes to?

[tipoftheRGB]

Like yeah I'm going to write one for my friends and family but the things that caused my suicide were preventable and I just wish that I could put that information somewhere so that some suicide prevention initiative in the future can be aware of those issues and more importantly, that people in general can be aware of those issues. And I want as many people as possible to know why I died. Its too late for me but I know younger lives could be saved if the information in my suicide note was acted on. Whether they choose to ignore the information in my note or act on it is up to them because its their world. But I want to communicate it out to the world so that if someone wants to see it and work on a problem in the world, they can.

I am considering sending my suicide note by a delayed email to every suicide charity and suicide research group possible because fuck it. Either they will ignore it or they will take note of the reasons and maybe stop this stuff from happening to other people in the future. But is there anywhere on the internet to upload it to as well? Uploading it here won't reach enough people because this website has a bad reputation among people who don't get it and its actually banned where I am. Its frustrating because theres so many suicide notes on here and on Reddit and they just get lost in time even though the messages in them could save future lives. And it seems like suicide notes are banned from Instagram, tiktok and Youtube. It seems like suicide, along with other mental issues, are only addressed when its too late but not enough is done to stop any of it happening in the first place. I'm also tired of genuine and justified distress being overmedicalised. No I'm not "sick" or "ill," I'm genuinely sad and hopeless and I desire suicide for justifiable reasons. Do people even care? I feel like they must do otherwise all of those suicide charities wouldn't exist. Sorry if this is more of a rant than an actual question in places.

 

[itsgone2]

I think your suicide charity idea is good and likely your best bet. At least they'd want to do something. In so many others corners of the internet things are forgotten so quickly.

 

[lilli_188]

As you already mentioned, a delayed email or post is your best bet to getting in contact with any charities of your interest. If you send it before, you do risk someone seeing it and making an attempt to save you.

I know it may not mean much, but this site is understanding and will read what you have to say. Many other websites I tried to find for you don't exist, since it is heavily looked down upon to use any sort of "suicide" term in a search.. regardless of search engine. If you goal is simply just to post them, then what you already said in your post will do, but I'm not too sure about making a big statement with your notes. It is already rather taboo to read suicide notes of others, and many large organizations don't seek just anyone out for their notes. It might be kind of unrealistic for you to want to make a big change via your own suicide notes. Many others have tried the same in the past, like those who do it on a lifestream.

Sorry if it's not much help, just offering an alternate perspective.

 

[tipoftheRGB]

As you already mentioned, a delayed email or post is your best bet to getting in contact with any charities of your interest. If you send it before, you do risk someone seeing it and making an attempt to save you.

I know it may not mean much, but this site is understanding and will read what you have to say. Many other websites I tried to find for you don't exist, since it is heavily looked down upon to use any sort of "suicide" term in a search.. regardless of search engine. If you goal is simply just to post them, then what you already said in your post will do, but I'm not too sure about making a big statement with your notes. It is already rather taboo to read suicide notes of others, and many large organizations don't seek just anyone out for their notes. It might be kind of unrealistic for you to want to make a big change via your own suicide notes. Many others have tried the same in the past, like those who do it on a lifestream.

Sorry if it's not much help, just offering an alternate perspective.

Agreed. I guess even just a few people knowing will be better than nothing. Hearing both of your responses has been helpful actually - just wanted to brainstorm a bit. Thank you!!

 

[lilli_188]

Agreed. I guess even just a few people knowing will be better than nothing. Hearing both of your responses has been helpful actually - just wanted to brainstorm a bit. Thank you!!

I understand wanting to make change. We all do. If we could, we would change everything we don't like, and that's just the most unrealistic change. I'm glad I could at least help you see it from a different light. I wish you peace in what you pursue!