Help is there anywhere good on the internet anymore

[meowpuppy]

basically title. i feel like no place on the internet is really suited for people like us, who are ostracized from the rest of society. obviously, twitter, tumblr, reddit, etc., all the major platforms are untenable, but i was also on the fediverse for, like, a year, and despite making some friends and girlfriends, it was a horrible time that left me pretty unwilling to talk to people.

aside from sasu, and hell, maybe including sasu, there's no place on the internet i know of that lets me actually exist as a person without constantly getting into catfights, or dismissing me, or yelling at me, etc, etc..

i wonder, at a point, whether or not i should even use the internet as a participant, or remain merely as a spectator. i used to, for a good year, just use the internet read-only, but these days i'm suffering from loneliness too much to go back to that..

 

[Kokonoe]

sasu is pretty much the only forum/social media i actively use anymore. every other account i have is privated and just used for scrolling, i never interact. sasu is nice because it's really the only place i can interact without fear and without filtering myself. i can just talk and it's ok to do that. it's also the only place where i find the people on it are people i am able to relate to and understand at least on some level. meanwhile everywhere else is completely unrelatable and foreign to me.
sasu is also definitely nice for patching up a lack of social interaction, that's sorta why i'm on here as much as i am.

 

[Awesomefoid67]

honestly not really you kind of have to like accept the bad bits or just avoid most of the internet tbh. i found like another forum kinda like this but relating to a different topic (which like i'd rather not share cus i dont wanna like direct anyone there who might like get worse mental health wise by going there lol) which is pretty good (alot nicer than here honestly) but every place sucks. atleast most places have like a block button or specific subforums or communities or whatever so you can kinda try filter out the bad but its difficult

 

[death over slavery]

Sasu is kinda a double-edged sword but would prefer it more compared to major social platforms. Probably because my ideologies would trigger the majority of the normies out there. Even making friends out there is quite difficult; the person might be chill to talk to, but then I remember my "liquidating" lifestyle would turn them off.

Then again, the internet is filled with the good and the bad, so that's up to you how you handle it.

 

[caotic_realm]

You're right, because talking about dying or depression is grounds for sanction or censorship. People shy away from you; they look at you as if you were some kind of poisonous creature.

I admit that I sometimes feel lonely on SaSu—perhaps because what I say doesn't interest others, and also because of the language barrier. I have to use a translator; otherwise, if I spoke in my native language (Spanish), no one would pay attention to me—I'd be ignored, except by those who speak my language or those curious about what I wrote.

I used to frequent forums and Facebook groups about depression and anxiety; at first, I was looking for help, wanting to meet people or just chat, but I always ended up getting bored. People would either ignore you or simply think you were lazy, lacking faith, overly pessimistic, or just not trying hard enough to get better.

I hope to die soon, for at times I still feel a certain pain—a vague pain born of loneliness. I have said that I have never had a girlfriend, but things would be no different if I had; the pain is, therefore, rather existential—if it can be defined in any way at all.

Individuality-solitude-existence....

 

[meowpuppy]

sasu is pretty much the only forum/social media i actively use anymore. every other account i have is privated and just used for scrolling, i never interact. sasu is nice because it's really the only place i can interact without fear and without filtering myself. i can just talk and it's ok to do that. it's also the only place where i find the people on it are people i am able to relate to and understand at least on some level. meanwhile everywhere else is completely unrelatable and foreign to me.
sasu is also definitely nice for patching up a lack of social interaction, that's sorta why i'm on here as much as i am.

relatable bestie that's why i made my account

You're right, because talking about dying or depression is grounds for sanction or censorship. People shy away from you; they look at you as if you were some kind of poisonous creature.

I admit that I sometimes feel lonely on SaSu—perhaps because what I say doesn't interest others, and also because of the language barrier. I have to use a translator; otherwise, if I spoke in my native language (Spanish), no one would pay attention to me—I'd be ignored, except by those who speak my language or those curious about what I wrote.

I used to frequent forums and Facebook groups about depression and anxiety; at first, I was looking for help, wanting to meet people or just chat, but I always ended up getting bored. People would either ignore you or simply think you were lazy, lacking faith, overly pessimistic, or just not trying hard enough to get better.

I hope to die soon, for at times I still feel a certain pain—a vague pain born of loneliness. I have said that I have never had a girlfriend, but things would be no different if I had; the pain is, therefore, rather existential—if it can be defined in any way at all.

Individuality-solitude-existence....

also relatable. so much of the world has an inherently protestant ethic to existence, and it hurts me so bad..

honestly not really you kind of have to like accept the bad bits or just avoid most of the internet tbh. i found like another forum kinda like this but relating to a different topic (which like i'd rather not share cus i dont wanna like direct anyone there who might like get worse mental health wise by going there lol) which is pretty good (alot nicer than here honestly) but every place sucks. atleast most places have like a block button or specific subforums or communities or whatever so you can kinda try filter out the bad but its difficult

sasu also doesn't have a block button? it has an ignore? idk the difference but it seems like there's a qualitative difference at least

also epic signature bestie 10/10

 

[Awesomefoid67]

relatable bestie that's why i made my account



also relatable. so much of the world has an inherently protestant ethic to existence, and it hurts me so bad..



sasu also doesn't have a block button? it has an ignore? idk the difference but it seems like there's a qualitative difference at least

also epic signature bestie 10/10

iirc ignore just hides the users posts/replies from you iirc which tbh sucks but is better thann othing

 

[buriedinmyhead]

SaSu is probably the one place online where I can be fully honest about how I feel without getting pushback

 

[Archness]

I honestly can't relate to most of humanity, and some SaSu people are the closest to really connecting to another person I guess.

You're right, because talking about dying or depression is grounds for sanction or censorship. People shy away from you; they look at you as if you were some kind of poisonous creature.

^ This

I've largely only lurked online and rarely actually interacted with others even online. I don't find it interesting or that appealing, like how it's not interesting or appealing to people IRL. I'm guessing it's different for normies and that the two are correlated in a person.

I'm also literally autistic, so it's not just a temporary "Mindset", but I'm really neurologically different from others and this is just what I am. Most places apart from SaSu would probably gaslight me and say I just need to "Change my Mindset" or "Adopt Confidence".

I also think the perception that the internet is an awful place is just the truth of human nature in general, very awful, very good, but usually in the middle. We're just more sensitive to the negative, and in the real world we naturally select who we're around and see, to those more tolerable to ourselves. Online, that's not the case or even inverted with algorithms, because fighting and arguing is very engaging and wastes lots of time to focus on the platform.

 

[ilovecats1]

i didnt realize but yeah the only place i could be honest was here for a long time. but also it comes with a little anonymity which i like i wouldnt want my friends to see what im talking about here im afraid.

only being a spectator sucks yeah it gets very lonely...

 

[Secro]

I was once admitted to a psychiatric hospital simply because I said on the internet that I was going to commit suicide; I didn't know that such things were reported to the police, I was quite shocked.

 

[westernromanpatriot]

yeah @caotic_realm I can definitely relate to you - I feel lonely in most places, including here.
I genuinely don't know whether something is wrong with *me* or others but I don't really care that much to try to find out why....

for some reason I never felt in place when it wasn't "my" place, I've just kept creating random discord servers. I guess I'm suffering from success, there have always been a lot of people in them but instead of being lonely on my own, I'm just lonely in a sea of people. Somehow, being lonely just comes from inside...

 

[TheEndIsPeace]

The internet just like real life (in my opinion) is a cold and lonely place, sometimes it's even worse as it brings out the vile true nature of people.