is there anyway to be better..

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i need some ways to be better, including CTB that i aint really want. although i do have an oppotunity of jumping or having a wrist cut. but i just wanna be better. be numb is good as well.

days before ive tried to jump but failed. it might be that it aint the time to pass. however im still feel pain as could not live more. is there anybody out there. no problem and doubt i cannot live.

i tryna got me thought myself gone ever bu couldnot. theres even no reason i feel depressed. i tryna to od yet no drugs can i get.

and i tell myself not to die, as if a belief, but that makes me worse. live in such a situation of being controlled with almost no freedom in physical and psycho.

therefore is there any way to be better? just a note post is already okay, or you suggest me to CTB. Please.

 

[LostHighway]

i need some ways to be better, including CTB that i aint really want. although i do have an oppotunity of jumping or having a wrist cut. but i just wanna be better. be numb is good as well.

days before ive tried to jump but failed. it might be that it aint the time to pass. however im still feel pain as could not live more. is there anybody out there. no problem and doubt i cannot live.

i tryna got me thought myself gone ever bu couldnot. theres even no reason i feel depressed. i tryna to od yet no drugs can i get.

and i tell myself not to die, as if a belief, but that makes me worse. live in such a situation of being controlled with almost no freedom in physical and psycho.

therefore is there any way to be better? just a note post is already okay, or you suggest me to CTB. Please.

What are you trying to do to get better? Do you have friends who support you? In what country do you live?

 

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What are you trying to do to get better? Do you have friends who support you? In what country do you live?

however i dont know.. i dont know how to try becoming into a great vibe. i do have friends but they support me yet i still feel their efforts confined. i live in China, and i just think maybe i will in such situation forever.

and thanks for your care...

 

[LostHighway]

however i dont know.. i dont know how to try becoming into a great vibe. i do have friends but they support me yet i still feel their efforts confined. i live in China, and i just think maybe i will in such situation forever.

and thanks for your care...

Can you get antidepressant medication in China? Have you been going to therapy? And of course there is TCM that might help.

Do you have any interests that can occupy your time? A job? Can you go out into nature? Join groups? There is a Japanese concept called Ikigai. Western culture has. broken it down to four concepts:

• What you love: Your passions and deep interests.

• What you are good at: Your unique talents and skills.

• What the world needs: How you can help your community or society.

• What you can get paid for: Your work or profession.
  
  In traditional Japanese culture, ikigai does not have to involve money or a job. It can be as simple as gardening, drinking tea, or spending time with friends and supportive family.
  
  It's something, if I were young and healthy, I would strive for. It gives you a reason to wake up in the morning.
  
  I'm sorry my advice is so basic. I wish you all the best.

 

[xetineline]

Can you get antidepressant medication in China? Have you been going to therapy? And of course there is TCM that might help.

yes im now take setraline, escitalopram oxalate, and estazolam. i have got a therapy but for me i think it's not much useful, including tcm.

Do you have any interests that can occupy your time? A job? Can you go out into nature? Join groups? There is a Japanese concept called Ikigai. Western culture has. broken it down to four concepts:

• What you love: Your passions and deep interests.
• What you are good at: Your unique talents and skills.
• What the world needs: How you can help your community or society.
• What you can get paid for: Your work or profession.
  
  In traditional Japanese culture, ikigai does not have to involve money or a job. It can be as simple as gardening, drinking tea, or spending time with friends and supportive family.
  
  It's something, if I were young and healthy, I would strive for. It gives you a reason to wake up in the morning.

yeah it might be a good way but, but you know, when i become really depressed it is no use at all, and i have no passions, no misson no profession no vocation.... i am just 15, and theres something i could do and it is in my interest yet, when the time recome the interest the... what way can they do!?.. that i means they(all you said)is not straightly connect to death. and if i pass i will not regret at all.. maybe just for that moment i wont.

 

[LostHighway]

yes im now take setraline, escitalopram oxalate, and estazolam. i have got a therapy but for me i think it's not much useful, including tcm.


yeah it might be a good way but, but you know, when i become really depressed it is no use at all, and i have no passions, no misson no profession no vocation.... i am just 15, and theres something i could do and it is in my interest yet, when the time recome the interest the... what way can they do!?.. that i means they(all you said)is not straightly connect to death. and if i pass i will not regret at all.. maybe just for that moment i wont.

could you say this part again? "theres something i could do and it is in my interest yet, when the time recome the interest the... what way can they do!?" if a part of you wants to live, listen to that part, okay? i know depression and apathy is VERY hard.

 

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could you say this part again? "theres something i could do and it is in my interest yet, when the time recome the interest the... what way can they do!?" if a part of you wants to live, listen to that part, okay? i know depression and apathy is VERY hard.

thx.... maybe not, i just instist on my fucking version..