Discussion Is there anything that would make you not want to CTB?

[SofterSoftest]

Having enough money to not have to work another day in my life.

 

[StevieNixs]

For me, something that would make me not want to CTB is being financially stable and independent and/or having a good family to rely on. I know this may be something common, but coming from a family who abandoned the first chance they got and hated me for no reason (you may think I'm exaggerating, but no, they literally hate me for no reason that makes sense in my mind) and potentially becoming homeless in Feburary, I wish nothing to have had a good family that would support me when I need assistance. It sucks seeing other people with good families and home lives, I don't get jealous of them, because I've never been the envious type, but I just wish in those moments that I had what they had or something similar. I sometimes think if I died today, that no one would show up to my funeral, that's if I would even be able have one to begin with.

Yes - my sister coming back to life.

 

[NotSureToEndure]

I'd quite like to re-roll my character, maybe to the age of 16. If I was given that as an option i'd probably give it a good go!

 

[ihatemylife]

My health back and enough money to be independent

 

[Starryeyes]

More money so im
Not forced to go to work when im
Mentally incapable of doing so

 

[eternalpeace]

I've reached the point where I just don't want to exist at all anymore, in any capacity. Financial problems definitely fuel my suicidality, but I don't think the general dread of existing would go away, even if those issues were resolved. Having said that, I'd love to suddenly find myself with $5 million dollars so that I could test that theory!

 

[blahblahuser1174]

go back in time
or be born in a different life

 

[combatcuteness]

My family, hope and love are big ones for me. Family's is the biggest one right now. Some are being reckless and might need me around for quite some time.

Each reason has a strong influence on me, I honestly owe my life to this.

 

[LookieLou]

A medical miracle, which is not coming.

 

[Bigpink]

Can't see anything that could happen which would want me continue living

 

[tgfm]

A miraculous recovery.

 

[xLosthopex]

Time machine

 

[fatefulstillness]

I don't think so. There are things that would make my stay a bit more comfortable, though (getting my college degree is one of them right now). I don't want to keep doing this for too long, but if something good comes my way, I'll take it. I know how it ends for me, it doesn't hurt to make a few stops.

 

[tieiwi]

If I had a healthy and happy family no drama no bullshit, that would solve all my problems

 

[FuneralCry]

No, there is nothing. Nothing would ever make me want to live. I want nothing to do with life. I have no interest in living. I see consciousness as being torture. I just want non existence, I belong in the nothingness. I wish I was never born.