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deadliftEnjoyer

deadliftEnjoyer

Member
Nov 9, 2022
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I'm interviewing for some very lgood jobs. If only they knew how much power over my survival they have...
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,346
I guess my initial desire to CTB was in direct reaction to a person. I suppose if the world was a more supportive place, perhaps a lot of us would end up having more fulfilling jobs and lives.

Still, I sort of also think that it's probably necessary to have such competition in jobs etc in the hopes that the best person gets the work. We can't all be wrapped in cotton wool forever. Think I really realise that I'm just not tough enough for this world. I don't want to put in the effort to make myself stronger either. I just want nothing more to do with it.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,823
Certainly not. No matter the circumstances, I could never ever want to exist. The thing that I've always had a problem with is life itself, it's such a curse and a burden being here and having the ability to be conscious and aware of this life is such a horrific and undesirable thing. As long as I'm here I will always suffer in some way and that's the reality.

I don't want to age and be trapped in this human body which can potentially torture us to such extreme extents. After all, life is such an useless concept and all that existing leads to is getting very old and deteriorating. This is something completely disturbing to me and I think that it makes sense wanting suicide to prevent all future suffering. There is simply no limits as to how awful things can get in this life and as well as that existing is just tedious and doesn't interest me in any way. So I will always choose non existence as I don't want to delay the inevitable. There is no point to suffering when instead I could already be gone, so the answer to the question is a definite no.
 
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wait.what

wait.what

no really, what?
Aug 14, 2020
994
No, probably not. For complicated reasons I won't bother to explain, I first developed serious suicidal thoughts and feelings when I was a teenager, back in the mid-80's. I'd been severely depressed for a good 6 years before that. There are no magic wands to fix that sort of thing.
 
Empyress

Empyress

sadnes
Nov 29, 2022
13
if the person i really really love (and still do, yes i know its unhealthy but i just cant lie to myself) never left or if they magically came back and told me they still wanna be with me id be one of happiest people out there then probably
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,866
No, there is nothing anyone can do....nothing
 

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