is there a valid reason to kill yourself?

[lpdsvm]

There is no wrong reason. No reason is needed. Even if the requirements are not met - no need to feel bad about it. I kinda want to do it but not there yet.
There are many people and any of them can make you feel bad and screw the day. So I try not to make myself feel bad.

 

[Harrier]

There is no wrong reason. No reason is needed. Even if the requirements are not met - no need to feel bad about it. I kinda want to do it but not there yet.

This.

What the anti-suicide people don't get is that many of us are past being talked out of our decision.

We may not be ready, but our reasons are sufficient, and they are ours.

At some point, I just stopped ignoring the 988 notifications that appear when I search for something related to suicide.

It is just background noise.

 

[Harrier]

This.

What the anti-suicide people don't get is that many of us are past being talked out of our decision.

We may not be ready, but our reasons are sufficient, and they are ours.

At some point, I just stopped ignoring the 988 notifications that appear when I search for something related to suicide.

It is just background noise.

I started ignoring the 988 notifications.

I was drunk last night when I posted that.

Hungover now, but I think that I am posting right this morning.

At least I know it is morning.

 

[asfergrggdas]

This.

What the anti-suicide people don't get is that many of us are past being talked out of our decision.

We may not be ready, but our reasons are sufficient, and they are ours.

At some point, I just stopped ignoring the 988 notifications that appear when I search for something related to suicide.

It is just background noise.

I always love it when people tell me this long list of things to do "go to therapy, start eating healthy and working out everyday, get on medication, get a routine, get any job, lean on supportive family, etc." like I'm sorry do you not think I have tried all of that and it hasn't worked? I don't have supportive family some of us aren't blessed with that. And my CPTSD and chronic fatigue make it so nobody wants to hire me and even if they do I always end up losing that job due to not showing up after some time due to my chronic exhaustion and depression. And everyone at that job hates me and thinks I am a freak. And I hate going to work and doing that job because it is corporate bullshit. 988 doesn't do anything. There is literally nothing at this point that could save me from this fate, only money would prolong my existence a few more years. The worst is when someone says "you matter" without knowing anything about my situation. I don't matter to literally anyone.

 

[Harrier]

I always love it when people tell me this long list of things to do "go to therapy, start eating healthy and working out everyday, get on medication, get a routine, get any job, lean on supportive family, etc." like I'm sorry do you not think I have tried all of that and it hasn't worked? I don't have supportive family some of us aren't blessed with that. And my CPTSD and chronic fatigue make it so nobody wants to hire me and even if they do I always end up losing that job due to not showing up after some time due to my chronic exhaustion and depression. And everyone at that job hates me and thinks I am a freak. And I hate going to work and doing that job because it is corporate bullshit. 988 doesn't do anything. There is literally nothing at this point that could save me from this fate, only money would prolong my existence a few more years. The worst is when someone says "you matter" without knowing anything about my situation. I don't matter to literally anyone.

I know how you feel.

Existing just seems pointless.

For what is worth, you matter to me and others on this forum.

We "get" it.

 

[Cauliflour]

God I don't even remember what my motive is anymore. I've been like this for so long that it's just apart of me now. Is that concerning?