Discussion Is there a daytime where you're less suicidal ?

[Das Nichts]

For me it's right after I wake up. Everything that im planning to do and preparing for feels unreal.
During the course of the day intrusive thoughts come back though.

 

[Unwr!tten]

For me, it's probably early afternoon.
I'm mostly suicidal though right before bed.

 

[unnormal9]

Yes. 0 O'clock.

 

[ocdrowsy]

Anytime when the sun is setting and it looks like the sky is painted with clouds it makes me feel like the world is beautiful

 

[treetop.grazer]

Im usually at my lowest when I wake up, by the end of the day I'm usually feeling relatively normal.

 

[Das Nichts]

Im usually at my lowest when I wake up, by the end of the day I'm usually feeling relatively normal.

Very interesting. Sleep seems to reset everything for me.

 

[squirley]

At no time at all.
I'm at ease with it.
Not pumping with anxiety or anything thinking ctb ctb ctb ahhhh. Or thinking oh hey the sunshine is out so nice.

All day and night. Just in a state of,
Existing? Not living.
I have my plan. When I get everything together. I'll go ahead with it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I used to be such a morning person but I've found my ideation is very strong in the mornings now. I probably feel at my most positive for just a few seconds after waking up before I remember who I am. Eating usually picks me up- so, after lunch I feel slightly better for a brief period. Then, I guess at night- when I'm too tired to do anymore work and all there is to do is relax and sleep. Ideation is with me most of the day though.

 

[BookPostponed]

Honestly this point I'm only suicidal when I'm awake, and the few hours that I have around animals are the ones I'm not.

 

[leftdreaming]

Mornings and nights, or the sleep cycle equivalent if I got my schedule messed up, is when Im at my worst. During the day I'm usually fine, but it's when it's day and Im depressed that I hit my ultimate low.

 

[Xta4Love]

In the late afternoon. Though im still suicidal 24/7. But im usually busy at that time. More distracted. And less tired.

In the morning im very suicidal. In the evening too.

 

[outrider567]

No, its just constant 24/7

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Nope. I either think about suicide, or not being the correct sex which circles back to suicidal thoughts.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm always wishing for permanent non-existence no matter what, simply just being conscious and aware makes me wish for the permanent relief that only death can bring. Existence certainly is the true problem for me, so no. I could never see existing here as being worth enduring, it's something so undesirable and dreadful, there is no value to this repulsive process of slowly dying.

 

[Lost Magic]

I'm better after 8pm at night. Daytime is usually the hardest time. I just want the day to end.

 

[Das Nichts]

I'm better after 8pm at night. Daytime is usually the hardest time. I just want the day to end.

I think a never ending winter - when it gets dark early - would comfort me.

 

[woh6]

During the day when I'm less suicidal because I'm with people- and not alone to let the thoughts get to me. Usually during the night or on weekends when I'm not seeing anyone, they become more frequent.

 

[Das Nichts]

During the day when I'm less suicidal because I'm with people- and not alone to let the thoughts get to me. Usually during the night or on weekends when I'm not seeing anyone, they become more frequent.

At this point I feel only work keeps me in my tracks. Weekends can be really bad for me to. Esp. now because we have lot's of holidays which extend the weekend for on more day.

 

[Proxycake]

When I am about to go to sleep, I find myself doing nothing but being able to imagine having to live again tomorrow.

 

[woh6]

At this point I feel only work keeps me in my tracks. Weekends can be really bad for me to. Esp. now because we have lot's of holidays which extend the weekend for on more day.

Same. I don't enjoy it but it definitely gives me some sort of structure and it keeps me busy. Wish you well

 

[Lost Magic]

I think a never ending winter - when it gets dark early - would comfort me.

Yeah, I feel you, that's why my room has blackout curtains haha. That's where I spend most of my time anyway.

 

[Unknown21]

Yes, it's afternoon.

 

[anonaon]

I'm anhedonic for most of the day but suicidal thoughts ramp up at night

 

[parader]

i always wake up terribly suicidal but it gets better throughout the day
so i guess around early night is the least suicidal moment? (because i often drink at night and it can go downhill from there on
but mornings are the absolute worst, i can have such a great time the day before and yet the morning after is brutal, dying is the first thing i ever think when i wake up

 

[leavingsoon99]

Not anymore. In fact, looking around at everything makes me even more suicidal. Not in a miserable way, but a grateful way. I'll be gone by the end of the summer. Whatever is coming for this species won't happen to me. Life is no longer my concern. The good nor bad, I don't care. I'll be gone.

 

[phantomime]

A bit after I get home from work. No usual time as my work schedule fluctuates. But I tend to be in a bad mood after just getting home but an hour and two go by and I don't find myself thinking about it too much.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I wake up in terror of being alive and ask myself why I didn't die in my sleep. the early afternoon is terrible, as I'm trying to find the will to live. then it usually slowly gets better towards the evening (but still remains). then it starts to get worse until it's right before I sleep and I'm miserable and in pain.

 

[charlotte_]

I guess it tend to be around morning to midday. Not the time when I just woke up though, that moment is dreadful. It's some time after I woke up and start working on whatever I need to do.

 

[Das Nichts]

A bit after I get home from work. No usual time as my work schedule fluctuates. But I tend to be in a bad mood after just getting home but an hour and two go by and I don't find myself thinking about it too much.

I hat this for some time when I needed excessive energy to maintain the charade at work. When I got home I was able to release the built up feelings.

Same. I don't enjoy it but it definitely gives me some sort of structure and it keeps me busy. Wish you well

I had a phase I'm my life where work was highly important for me. I invested a huge amount of energy into it but
never got the right satisfaction, also was near burn-out. So I quit, to a huge loss of salary and now I see it just
as a need to make ends meet.

Although it's sometimes highly frustrating for me because some things would be so easy to fix but nobody does it.
Lots of talk but nothing comes out of it. The same stuff happening again, again.

Last year I had a phase where I really detested it because I got fucked over a promotion. It's ironic that now it's probably
a contributing factor while I'm still alive.

 

[Twiceler]

Morning.