
Flutter Girl
An alphabet soup of pain, pain, & more pain
- May 6, 2022
- 13
I'm just wondering because all of my conditions (especially Long COVID) make it hard to read actual books…(though I'm sure I could push through a chapter if I truly need!). I've already read the document with some of the experiences…the one about someone named Moonie was helpful & reassuring. Also read about how the experience went for a few others.
I have the SD type (which people have said has tested legit) and am going to test it myself sometime soon. I should already have the AE (meto),Tagamet, benzo, & I believe some old propranolol…bc I have THAT many health conditions.
I'm sick of the health issues, sick of the narcissistic abuse that I seem to keep attracting (even if I stopped attracting it, the damage from previous/ongoing abusers is too insurmountable), & I'm not about to wait to be homeless on the street to do this.
Another Q…does anyone know the best social media platform for reliably/easily making a delayed post (that can be erased if something goes wrong)? I realized that I don't know anyone's email address anymore, or how often they use them. Asking would DEF be a red flag.
As I've mentioned, I need my dog to be rescued as soon after as is safe, bc there's nowhere else she can go beforehand (I believe I may have detailed why in a previous post). I'm sad I can't go with her at my side, but I'm afraid of her trying to lick me awake, & being poisoned herself (by any kind of vomit on my face/mouth/etc). She's kept me going the past few years, but she needs a healthier pet parent. I really want to be sure to get her help asap, bc I know she'll be upset. I wish so much that I didn't have to leave her, and that a single living human cared about me as much as she does.
I just need to be sure that I've given myself enough time on whatever delayed post I (I'm thinking 8-10 hours). Going to practice with "safe" posts beforehand…the last thing I need is accidental "saving"
I really have to say…the only moments calm I've known in YEARS have been since I first found this site and started lurking.
Thanks to all of you for finally giving me a place I feel that I can actually reveal my true feelings. It's been awful to deal with so much in my life, and to have it compounded by being held silent (which was better than dealing with "pick yourself up by the bootstraps" and "I'm over 1,000 miles away and haven't seen you in YEARS, but I'm sure that you can't be as sick as you say you are/be sicker than me when you're younger than me" from my mother or anyone else…but the isolation has still been so damn awful).
It's sad/ironic that this is one of the few places that I've found a sense of community…but y'all are great.
I have the SD type (which people have said has tested legit) and am going to test it myself sometime soon. I should already have the AE (meto),Tagamet, benzo, & I believe some old propranolol…bc I have THAT many health conditions.
I'm sick of the health issues, sick of the narcissistic abuse that I seem to keep attracting (even if I stopped attracting it, the damage from previous/ongoing abusers is too insurmountable), & I'm not about to wait to be homeless on the street to do this.
Another Q…does anyone know the best social media platform for reliably/easily making a delayed post (that can be erased if something goes wrong)? I realized that I don't know anyone's email address anymore, or how often they use them. Asking would DEF be a red flag.
As I've mentioned, I need my dog to be rescued as soon after as is safe, bc there's nowhere else she can go beforehand (I believe I may have detailed why in a previous post). I'm sad I can't go with her at my side, but I'm afraid of her trying to lick me awake, & being poisoned herself (by any kind of vomit on my face/mouth/etc). She's kept me going the past few years, but she needs a healthier pet parent. I really want to be sure to get her help asap, bc I know she'll be upset. I wish so much that I didn't have to leave her, and that a single living human cared about me as much as she does.
I just need to be sure that I've given myself enough time on whatever delayed post I (I'm thinking 8-10 hours). Going to practice with "safe" posts beforehand…the last thing I need is accidental "saving"

I really have to say…the only moments calm I've known in YEARS have been since I first found this site and started lurking.
Thanks to all of you for finally giving me a place I feel that I can actually reveal my true feelings. It's been awful to deal with so much in my life, and to have it compounded by being held silent (which was better than dealing with "pick yourself up by the bootstraps" and "I'm over 1,000 miles away and haven't seen you in YEARS, but I'm sure that you can't be as sick as you say you are/be sicker than me when you're younger than me" from my mother or anyone else…but the isolation has still been so damn awful).
It's sad/ironic that this is one of the few places that I've found a sense of community…but y'all are great.
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