Is it worth trying to find a CTB partner?

[mushroom_blue]

Does anyone here have experience with suicide pacts?

If you're still here obviously it didn't work out, so what went wrong?
Do you plan on trying to find someone else? What do you look for and what do you avoid in a prospective partner?

I'm more or less content with ending things alone, but there's a part of me that yearns for some kind of human connection or intimacy in my final moments.
And maybe I'm just a romanticist, but I also feel like having someone by your side would make taking the leap a bit easier.

 

[Steph99]

I think dying with someone you have an intimate connection with would be ideal. I would love such a partner. In the real world I think it would be virtually impossible as all the reposts in the Partners Megathread indicates.
And hello!

 

[auti]

Spoiler: Nsfw mention

Nsfw but I am a virgin and would like to have my first time with someone before dying... I might finally be happy if I could die alongside someone

 

[eggsausagerice]

Does anyone here have experience with suicide pacts?

If you're still here obviously it didn't work out, so what went wrong?
Do you plan on trying to find someone else? What do you look for and what do you avoid in a prospective partner?

i've been posting on the partner's thread on and off for a year and it just feels like a really big chore to me now, especially as someone that's been wanting to make it work. a lot of people just want to recover or live too far away from me. or they were caught by someone in their life. most people never seem to be serious. usually distance is the hardest thing to deal with because i can't drive and i usually only have 50 dollars in my card. i feel like i should've given up on the concept of having a suicide partner much sooner than this.

even now, i think of asking people in my personal life if they would want to kill themselves with me. but i know that no one i know is suicidal enough to really want to. it feels incredibly lonely to live in my city and i wish i could do it with someone. i'm curious to see if anyone else's experience has been different. i don't know anyone that's actually been able to find a consistent suicide partner.

would like to have my first time with someone before dying... I might finally be happy if I could die alongside someone

going to be real, i think it's very likely that someone could get SAed if they're using the partner's thread as a way to try and lose their virginity. there's been posts about people that assaulted women and killed them, it was pretty bad. there's also a lot of older people on the partner's thread, which makes me nervous when i'm only in my 20s.

 

[mushroom_blue]

I think dying with someone you have an intimate connection with would be ideal. I would love such a partner. In the real world I think it would be virtually impossible as all the reposts in the Partners Megathread indicates.
And hello!

Yeah, I suppose it is wishful thinking, finding someone who also happens to be suicidal and you would be actually happy dying with. If it were so easy to find that special person, I imagine a lot of us loners wouldn't be on this forum. (And hello to you aswell friend!)

Spoiler: Nsfw mention

Nsfw but I am a virgin and would like to have my first time with someone before dying... I might finally be happy if I could die alongside someone

I don't really mind the thought of dying with my v-card intact tbh, I moreso want someone who I can connect with on a deeply personal level, it doesn't necessarily have to be a sexual relationship

i've been posting on the partner's thread on and off for a year and it just feels like a really big chore to me now, especially as someone that's been wanting to make it work. a lot of people just want to recover or live too far away from me. or they were caught by someone in their life. most people never seem to be serious. usually distance is the hardest thing to deal with because i can't drive and i usually only have 50 dollars in my card. i feel like i should've given up on the concept of having a suicide partner much sooner than this.

even now, i think of asking people in my personal life if they would want to kill themselves with me. but i know that no one i know is suicidal enough to really want to. it feels incredibly lonely to live in my city and i wish i could do it with someone. i'm curious to see if anyone else's experience has been different. i don't know anyone that's actually been able to find a consistent suicide partner.


going to be real, i think it's very likely that someone could get SAed if they're using the partner's thread as a way to try and lose their virginity. there's been posts about people that assaulted women and killed them, it was pretty bad. there's also a lot of older people on the partner's thread, which makes me nervous when i'm only in my 20s.

I've been tempted to post in that thread for a while now, but yeah, it seems like most of the posts there won't ever lead to anything or have blaring red flags. I suppose I'm in a better position to make something work, as travel isn't that big of an issue for me, but still, the thought of dropping everything and driving across the country just for someone to be like; "Nah, I changed my mind, I acutally don't want to die anymore" makes me think twice about it