Discussion Is it weird to ctb because you feel that you have failed your loved ones and in some ways you consider it a just punishment/consequence?

[TDF]

It's not the only reason I want to ctb, but definitely one if I'm being honest. I feel that I have utterly failed my loved ones due to the choices I made in life, like who I chose to marry and the utter terribleness i brought upon myself and my family over a very long period of time as a result. I feel like I hugely dishonoured my parents. It wasn't my fault directly, but I feel extremely responsible obviously. I know it's a little weird, but it's very true to me. Like the sentiment behind a seppuku (Japanese ritual suicide to restore honour).

 

[Lily (Osako)]

I don't think it's weird. Just the opposite, in fact. It seems a lot of people with ideation feel they have failed their loved ones.
I don't know how true it is that they've actually failed anyone, just that I see a lot of that sentiment around here.

 

[TDF]

I don't think it's weird. Just the opposite, in fact. It seems a lot of people with ideation feel they have failed their loved ones.
I don't know how true it is that they've actually failed anyone, just that I see a lot of that sentiment around here.

:) thank you lily, that makes me feel a little better.

 

[MrDarkness]

I said to myself, if I fail high school and not graduate, I'm killing my self, I graduated. I have no purpose

 

[TDF]

I said to myself, if I fail high school and not graduate, I'm killing my self, I graduated. I have no purpose

:( is there something that u might want to try?

 

[MrDarkness]

:( is there something that u might want to try?

Maybe a job idk, but I'd probably snap, I enjoyed school cause it kept my mind busy; what now?

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't think that wanting to ctb could ever be something weird, wanting to leave this world is always valid and it's a personal decision, it shouldn't have to be justified with reasons, it's up to the individual when to leave, none of us are obligated to suffer for a second longer than we wish to.