Is it even possible for me to escape?

[snooperdooper]

So, I think I am eternally (or however eternal life) stuck in this horrible, horrible position. I am 19, but I have almost no independence. My parents control all of my finances, I am stuck living at home with them, and I don't know how to drive. I tried to CTB by getting SN but they intercepted the package at the mailbox and now I literally don't have the key to open the mail. So I can't even discreetly purchase items to CTB. I want so desperately to scream at them about how they are forcing me to suffer here and how I hate them and how selfish they are, but I know that would only make things worse. I would end up in a mental hospital because they would NEVER give me the satisfaction of letting me CTB. I can't even gain some independence for myself because I have neither the motivation or energy to do so. I mean, I'm literally depressed how am I supposed to pull myself up by my bootstraps and work to get my own home or go to college or learn how to drive?

So now I feel stuck. I literally do not know if it is even possible to break free from this hellish cycle of suffering. I mean, what do you think? Am I just stuck here forever? What the fuck do I do?!?!?!

 

[brokenspirited]

Perhaps you could have it delivered to the post office and pick it up from there?

 

[snooperdooper]

Perhaps you could have it delivered to the post office and pick it up from there?

How am I supposed to get to the post office... without a car... I live in the suburbs so to reach anything you have to use a car.

 

[brokenspirited]

How am I supposed to get to the post office... without a car... I live in the suburbs so to reach anything you have to use a car.

Can you call an Uber/Lyft?

Or a friend that can drive you?

 

[snooperdooper]

Can you call an Uber/Lyft?

Or a friend that can drive you?

I don't have any friends, and like I said, my parents control all my finances so they'd be suspicious if I called an Uber.