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ironrain

ironrain

Dark clouds gather foreshadowing heavy rain.
Mar 2, 2026
53
I can only acquire SN, some antiemetic and painkiller. I want this quick and I can't wait till Monday. Is it enough? Sorry, I'm stupid.
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

The future prepared for us is a twisted joke.
Aug 30, 2025
199
Yep. Should be enough imo. I hope it works out for you
 
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idfwlnh

idfwlnh

Mousse - the final "peace" in life
Apr 10, 2026
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What plan on using AE do u have? Your antiemetics regime I mean
 
maki

maki

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Apr 18, 2026
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i remember you posting a thread the other day about not wanting to ctb anymore. ultimately, it's your decision but i really really encourage you to rethink if this is the best course of action in a calm state of mind.

if you already have SN then you ctb whenever you want. why not attempt every other option at potentially getting better before choosing the last resort? ♥︎
 
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ironrain

Dark clouds gather foreshadowing heavy rain.
Mar 2, 2026
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i remember you posting a thread the other day about not wanting to ctb anymore. ultimately, it's your decision but i really really encourage you to rethink if this is the best course of action in a calm state of mind.

if you already have SN then you ctb whenever you want. why not attempt every other option at potentially getting better before choosing the last resort? ♥︎
Idk, I don't think there's something to live for. I might get blind because of detachment (my fault btw). Lazer will just slow unavoidable for a little. I hate my body. I feel guilt because of what I've done. I'm behind. I don't really see the point. I'm going to ophthalmologist tomorrow. If detachment is confirmed then I'm going to ctb. Art is literally everything I care about. And if I can't even do art, care about how much time I spend on it, then what's the point. My parents would probably yell at me for not listening to them, for sitting at dark woth my phone. Bruh well, that was my only comfort.
 

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