Hi, can you describe more the overdose experience? Is it just such an unbelievable wave that it is dissociating?
Like, can one 'surrender' to the joy and drift off in bliss, or is it just such an unreal euphoria that it becomes disturbing and you are alert to everything going on?
Or is there a big risk that the joy enhances survival instinct and prompts one to call for help so that a life of drug addiction can be entertained? If you just eventually black out I guess all is well as long as we are somewhere private with no means of communication.
Still sounds better than many methods, including SN.
If you do decide to CTB once and for all, would it be your go-to method?