i'm currently backpacking in southeast asia and i plan to ctb when i run out of money next month. i have no relationship with my family so cannot ask for help and i will be stuck over here with no way to earn money. i was supposed to go to uni next month so my savings were only to last until then but my family was paying and we've had a falling out. if i were to fly back home early i would have nobody to stay with and the flight would use up most of my savings so i would be in a worse place sooner as my home country is much more expensive. but i've been suicidal since i was 8 years old, my reasons are not purely financial - it just seems like the timing is right for things to come to an end. i have no one and nothing left in my life anyways and i would rather be end things with dignity than be homeless out here.
anyways i know you cannot find n here anymore but in most countries here you can very easily get benzos o without a prescription at the pharmacy. they have been my drug of choice for a long time and the idea of od-ing on them seems peaceful and scares me less than other ways. but the problem is they are pretty much impossible to od on alone, you need other things in the mix. i have heard of people od-ing if they mix benzos and alcohol. i have a few questions:
- what would be the dosage (around how many pills and how many drinks) to cause death?
- would it be a peaceful way to go as i am imagining?
- is there a high risk of other complications if i were to live? my biggest fear is to live but end up paralyzed or something like that
- i also can probably access a lot of other prescription drugs without a prescription as well if anyone has a better combo/idea.
anyways i know you cannot find n here anymore but in most countries here you can very easily get benzos o without a prescription at the pharmacy. they have been my drug of choice for a long time and the idea of od-ing on them seems peaceful and scares me less than other ways. but the problem is they are pretty much impossible to od on alone, you need other things in the mix. i have heard of people od-ing if they mix benzos and alcohol. i have a few questions:
- what would be the dosage (around how many pills and how many drinks) to cause death?
- would it be a peaceful way to go as i am imagining?
- is there a high risk of other complications if i were to live? my biggest fear is to live but end up paralyzed or something like that
- i also can probably access a lot of other prescription drugs without a prescription as well if anyone has a better combo/idea.
