former forum user J
defunct account, working on recovery
- Jun 22, 2023
- 45
Looking after little cousin right now.
Had to hold to get him to sleep just like my own father did.
I know some people have truly awful parents.
I just think the narrative my psychiatrist / Freud pushed for that my father and mother had through trauma somehow made me experience the mental illness. 1) that's obviously bullshit. If I lived better I wouldn't have had those problems. Takes away accountability from yourself. Side note: a really smart really beautiful girl argued with me on this. I hope I at least date that girl in this lifetime 2) that kind of idea is very damaging for everyone.
My exam results come out in a few days. If they are good, my father and mother can be praised and feel they did a good job. I can feel hopeful for the future.
If they are bad, ie a 5 mark difference, then I am now a failure, my life is miserable, and my parents feel ashamed.
Title: was going to my question but I realise now it's stupid. Obviously my parents would rather me be a alive and dead.
Would post this on reddit but I've been banned for telling people not to kill themselves lmao. Imagine I might soon get banned from here for the same reasons.
Had to hold to get him to sleep just like my own father did.
I know some people have truly awful parents.
I just think the narrative my psychiatrist / Freud pushed for that my father and mother had through trauma somehow made me experience the mental illness. 1) that's obviously bullshit. If I lived better I wouldn't have had those problems. Takes away accountability from yourself. Side note: a really smart really beautiful girl argued with me on this. I hope I at least date that girl in this lifetime 2) that kind of idea is very damaging for everyone.
My exam results come out in a few days. If they are good, my father and mother can be praised and feel they did a good job. I can feel hopeful for the future.
If they are bad, ie a 5 mark difference, then I am now a failure, my life is miserable, and my parents feel ashamed.
Title: was going to my question but I realise now it's stupid. Obviously my parents would rather me be a alive and dead.
Would post this on reddit but I've been banned for telling people not to kill themselves lmao. Imagine I might soon get banned from here for the same reasons.
