Well, there is a declassified CIA document called "Analysis and Assessment of Gateway Process" that sort of elaborates that God exists.
It talks about a neutral and non-judgemental universal consciousness or Absolute energy where all live comes from.
That we can tap into this energy and become one with it through human mind exercises like Robert Monroe's Gateway Experience, meditation, and etc.
Also, I think we can unconsciously tap into this energy when we realize that we are part of a whole, not just an individual (ego).
Ego is not necessarily a bad thing. It helps it understand the world from our own unique perspective, and we must work through a lifetime to gain some sense of balance.
I think that is probably the meaning of life to reconnect with this source.
If any of this is true, I'm sorry that this journey to find balance is harder for some people due to circumstances outside of their control. It is totally unfair.