What is your breaking point

[SomewhereNew]

I don't know what my breaking point is as others. I feel like I'm in limbo in terms of my decisions to leave this world. I have come to learn demons exist and therefore God. How can I fear death when the dead or demons told me "everything dies" when I asked how do they feel knowing that they are dead? They literally replied everything dies. I could blow my head clean off but that just doesn't sit right with me. I think I still have a purpose to explain God is as real as demons and to keep going do not give up on your self

 

[Manfrotto99]

Breaking point to me is whatever it takes to overcome the SI - and im guessing that is different for everyone. I too believe in God and demons. Seen too much darkness not too believe! Yes everything does die - but from that point of view if your not struggling enough to overcome your SI and you can can still function day to day - what difference does it make if you die now or later? You may as well hang in there even if it's just to observe - kind of like an experiment- that's the way I've approached the last few years. I can see now that God had reasons to keep me around even though I wish He hadn't....mainly to support my cousin who had cancer etc. Now I'm not sure...but then I have never been sure and I'm always living on that edge of breaking point. I do believe if you hang around and ask God to show you, He will reveal that He is is just as real as demons.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me existence itself is enough to make me wish to permanently cease existing, all I want is to be free from this existence so terrible, torturous and cruel that I just always saw as a mistake and I always suffer from being trapped in this horrific world where there is all this endless suffering and torture. All that existence ever does is just torture existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it's just so horrible how the torture of being burdened with this existence can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible extreme agony of old age, for me ceasing to exist is all that's positive, I just want to never suffer again.