Discussion is anything stopping you from ctb?

[coldkittypaws]

suicide (to me at least) honestly feels like such a reliving way to go for the most part because you get to normally choose how you want to go & when instead of your life being unexpectedly or forcefully taken from you.

but i get anxious at the thought of death (although i know ill have to die one day) because we don't know what happens.

i believe in God but my relationship with him— not so good unfortunately & of course since im a human i struggle heavily with it but this isn't a religious post so yeah enough of that.
but regardless i rely on faith & prayers that God is real & i dont mind this because i don't necessarily need proof BUT since there obviously isn't proof in a sense, we still don't know what happens after death.

thats really the only thing holding me back.
oh and a plan too lol i have no plan.

 

[FoxSauce]

Fam. Dad ,sisters and freinds

Thats it and try to give a chance before I go or If or impulsively.


I'm a coward and afraid of death. Well wbat comes after.

 

[thrim]

Mostly fear and I tend to want to do so much before going through with anything that I end up getting too tired/sleepy to even want to keep on and just sleep it off and procrastinate T_T however I've concluded that it's just a sorry excuse I've made for myself,,,
It's also the fear of failing. Recovery sounds like hell if I were resilient enough to survive!!! I also don't want to leave my cats behind just yet (；′⌒`)

 

[coldkittypaws]

Fam. Dad ,sisters and freinds

Thats it and try to give a chance before I go or If or impulsively.


I'm a coward and afraid of death. Well wbat comes after.

me too me too

Mostly fear and I tend to want to do so much before going through with anything that I end up getting too tired/sleepy to even want to keep on and just sleep it off and procrastinate T_T however I've concluded that it's just a sorry excuse I've made for myself,,,
It's also the fear of failing. Recovery sounds like hell if I were resilient enough to survive!!! I also don't want to leave my cats behind just yet (；′⌒`)

& thats okay because theres really no rush when it comes to committing. for most people its kind of a big deal because planning, time and date, area, if ur gonna be found or not things like that.
and.. CATSSS :3

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

i'm a coward but my hard deadline is 2027. if i can't graduate college at 27 then i give up on life.

 

[Kokonoe]

the only thing stopping me is the lack of effective methods available to me. my situation is very limiting but i have tried so many things so many times and i never died. i sort of realized none of them will probably ever work. i cant just keep trying until they work due to risking permanent damage of some kind, or giving myself a stroke or something..
it's extremely distressing to have to consider the possibility i won't ever be able to die because nothing i can do can kill me. i don't want to be stuck here.

my current home sadly has no spot to set up FSH. but my new home should hopefully be able to make FSH work. i am just waiting until i am finally able to move in. the moment i'm finished moving i'll attempt FSH. i really, really hope it works. i don't know what i will do if it doesn't...

 

[doomedbynarrative]

Love and no access to methods honestly. Mostly love though. One day it might not be enough.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Yes and that is stupidity. I am dumb because an intelligent person would finally accept he simply had bad luck his circumstances destroyed him and now is the time. Suicide would prevent more pain and it'd prevent an even more horrible future .
The intelligent person wouldn't even have fear about it but instead would be glad he at least has the chance to escape but here I am going through the same damn thought again and again and again then I become very exhausted go to sleep next day repeat , this is stupidity this is no si this is just stupidity….

 

[colorlesshue]

i love my boyfriend and my parents, i'd hate to put the burden of cleaning after what i leave behind onto them.

 

[rainrainrain]

If I did I'm certain my mom would follow suit. It would ruin my dad and brother as well even though we don't get along now. I'm also a vindictive ass and want to outlive those who have wronged me. But yeah mainly family.

 

[eyeswithoutaface]

waiting for the spiderman movie and the thoughts that my family will suffer longterm because of it (especially if they'd also feel suicidal by it) but i dont think thats likely.

 

[Cyc]

The only thing stopping me is needing to carefully plan out everything I need to do to CTB. I'm ready to go

 

[FaultyCepheus]

kinda hypocritical cause i attempted last night but originally i wanted to wait to see my long distance friends (feb and april) and then i have a concert in july which i am clinging to after that im gone hopefully

 

[itsgone2]

It's difficult. I'm so jealous of those brave enough to have done it. It's difficult and I'm weak

It will have to happen eventually but in the meantime I will continue to suffer greatly

 

[sireb_b]

I feel like lazyness and fright are what stop me the most. I mean there are people that care (I think) in my life, but at the moment it doesn't really phase me, they'll probably abandon me eventually. The thought alone of CTB being a permanent and dangerous choice scare me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, the fact that I exist in this horrific reality where it's a crime to never suffer ever again, to me anti-suicide is such terrible extreme cruelty, I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this reality where evil humans have made painless death illegal, there's just so much evil in anti-suicide.

All that these people want is to make others feel the pain and agony of existing for as much as long as possible, I wish I could just choose to erase this existence, all that existence does is just cause harm and suffering, it's just so horrific to me how humans so tragically impose this existence and do all they can to make it so others are tortured for as long as possible, all I want is to never suffer again, for me ceasing to exist is the only peace and only positive solution for me, I'll always see existence as a mistake.

 

[that_miqo'te]

I currently operate on an assumption I'll survive for the sake of still doing things that would be inconvenient to miss if I do survive. Unfortunately this makes most methods that can have negative effects if I survive troublesome.