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coldkittypaws

coldkittypaws

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Jun 19, 2025
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suicide (to me at least) honestly feels like such a reliving way to go for the most part because you get to normally choose how you want to go & when instead of your life being unexpectedly or forcefully taken from you.

but i get anxious at the thought of death (although i know ill have to die one day) because we don't know what happens.

i believe in God but my relationship with him— not so good unfortunately & of course since im a human i struggle heavily with it but this isn't a religious post so yeah enough of that.
but regardless i rely on faith & prayers that God is real & i dont mind this because i don't necessarily need proof BUT since there obviously isn't proof in a sense, we still don't know what happens after death.

thats really the only thing holding me back.
oh and a plan too lol i have no plan.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
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Fam. Dad ,sisters and freinds

Thats it and try to give a chance before I go or If or impulsively.


I'm a coward and afraid of death. Well wbat comes after.
 
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thrim

thrim

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Jan 23, 2026
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Mostly fear and I tend to want to do so much before going through with anything that I end up getting too tired/sleepy to even want to keep on and just sleep it off and procrastinate T_T however I've concluded that it's just a sorry excuse I've made for myself,,,
It's also the fear of failing. Recovery sounds like hell if I were resilient enough to survive!!! I also don't want to leave my cats behind just yet (;′⌒`)
 
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coldkittypaws

coldkittypaws

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Jun 19, 2025
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Fam. Dad ,sisters and freinds

Thats it and try to give a chance before I go or If or impulsively.


I'm a coward and afraid of death. Well wbat comes after.
me too me too
Mostly fear and I tend to want to do so much before going through with anything that I end up getting too tired/sleepy to even want to keep on and just sleep it off and procrastinate T_T however I've concluded that it's just a sorry excuse I've made for myself,,,
It's also the fear of failing. Recovery sounds like hell if I were resilient enough to survive!!! I also don't want to leave my cats behind just yet (;′⌒`)
& thats okay because theres really no rush when it comes to committing. for most people its kind of a big deal because planning, time and date, area, if ur gonna be found or not things like that.
and.. CATSSS :3
 
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vyvanceandvodka

vyvanceandvodka

hoping to recover .✦ ݁˖♡
Jan 7, 2026
81
i'm a coward but my hard deadline is 2027. if i can't graduate college at 27 then i give up on life.
 
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless, Broken Doll
Apr 20, 2023
42
the only thing stopping me is the lack of effective methods available to me. my situation is very limiting but i have tried so many things so many times and i never died. i sort of realized none of them will probably ever work. i cant just keep trying until they work due to risking permanent damage of some kind, or giving myself a stroke or something..
it's extremely distressing to have to consider the possibility i won't ever be able to die because nothing i can do can kill me. i don't want to be stuck here.

my current home sadly has no spot to set up FSH. but my new home should hopefully be able to make FSH work. i am just waiting until i am finally able to move in. the moment i'm finished moving i'll attempt FSH. i really, really hope it works. i don't know what i will do if it doesn't...
 
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doomedbynarrative

doomedbynarrative

Losing more of myself every day.
Jan 21, 2026
38
Love and no access to methods honestly. Mostly love though. One day it might not be enough.
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
605
Yes and that is stupidity. I am dumb because an intelligent person would finally accept he simply had bad luck his circumstances destroyed him and now is the time. Suicide would prevent more pain and it'd prevent an even more horrible future .
The intelligent person wouldn't even have fear about it but instead would be glad he at least has the chance to escape but here I am going through the same damn thought again and again and again then I become very exhausted go to sleep next day repeat , this is stupidity this is no si this is just stupidity….
 
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colorlesshue

colorlesshue

all guts no glory; all survivor no guilt.
Jun 28, 2023
119
i love my boyfriend and my parents, i'd hate to put the burden of cleaning after what i leave behind onto them.
 
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