Is anyone here going to commit suicide because of romantic loneliness / repeated humiliation?

[Lebensunwertes]

Pretty much, but subtract any relationship or intimacy. This is an abstract concept to me. To have experienced absolutely zero affection at the age when most people have already secured a long time partner is humiliating, frustrating and alienating. It is somewhat bearable in late teens, early adulthood, but as years go by these feelings start to eat your soul away. I'm not claiming it is the only reason why I want to terminate my existence, however it is one of the notable factors. I can see my mental state has deteriorated in the past few years as I realized that my window of opportunities was getting narrower.

 

[Final-push123]

Hello. This is my first post but I have watched this forum for a long time. I was just wondering if there is anyone here in a situation like mine. I am a 30-year-old woman and I didn't have a lot of romantic interactions in my early life. A few years ago I moved to a new country for work and started online dating. My experiences have been horrific and humiliating. I have not been able to establish a relationship in my 2.5 years of trying. I have had multiple instances in which I dated men for a month or so, and felt very strongly and they seemed to as well. Then we slept together and afterwards they blocked me on everything and never spoke to me again. I have lost all confidence in myself and feel completely undesirable and like I could never add anything to anyone's life. I am so desperate for any kind of affection or human touch that it almost feels like a physical pain. I am finding it more and more difficult to leave home and I know the end is coming because the urge to hurt myself badly is becoming stronger and stronger. I intend to hang myself but there is nothing in my apartment strong enough to hold my weight. That's the last piece of the puzzle.

Is there anyone else in a situation like this? I would really like to hear from you.

Not enough to CtB, in my 20's I got ghosted all the time. Got one gf in life and she was cruel (pro tip: don't make ghost jokes about your partner recently deceased mom or dad).

Although it suck to be alone, I have gotten use to it once I accepted that women simply don't want me and that is ok, I lived this long without a gf what a few more years, eh?.....and besides there always the "hub"
>;)

 

[JJMaynard97]

I usually just get rape threats whenever i try to use dating sites, never managed to find something that seems trustworthy enough to sleep with, let alone date.

Thats Terrible, Rape threats are disgusting and people who say those words in my eyes are evil. No man or woman, should ever have to go with that shit. It's not right. So sorry to hear. There's some decent people on here who are always willing to listen. Me included. My name is Jordan. Those disgusting people do not deserve you. That's for sure I hope you find happiness.

Hello. This is my first post but I have watched this forum for a long time. I was just wondering if there is anyone here in a situation like mine. I am a 30-year-old woman and I didn't have a lot of romantic interactions in my early life. A few years ago I moved to a new country for work and started online dating. My experiences have been horrific and humiliating. I have not been able to establish a relationship in my 2.5 years of trying. I have had multiple instances in which I dated men for a month or so, and felt very strongly and they seemed to as well. Then we slept together and afterwards they blocked me on everything and never spoke to me again. I have lost all confidence in myself and feel completely undesirable and like I could never add anything to anyone's life. I am so desperate for any kind of affection or human touch that it almost feels like a physical pain. I am finding it more and more difficult to leave home and I know the end is coming because the urge to hurt myself badly is becoming stronger and stronger. I intend to hang myself but there is nothing in my apartment strong enough to hold my weight. That's the last piece of the puzzle.

Is there anyone else in a situation like this? I would really like to hear from you.

Thats so sad. I'm so sorry to hear that, I'll say it plainly I'm sure you're a lovely lady, and those men are scum. Unfortunately there are men out there that like to just take advantage of nice , caring woman and abuse the dating sites. I really hope that yout find your Mr Right. Someone who will show respect and affection. Really sorry to hear that you've been thinking of ending your life. I really hope you can find some piece and some sort of healing or help. , THank you for sharing you story. I've split up with my Ex Girlfriend about 5 weeks ago. I really cared about her, still care and love her. Sadly she didn't feel the same. So have felt very lonely since. Considering I thought to the future. I'm on here because I'm a failure and I failed her in some way. If I just vanished off this planet then she'd be able to heal and move on. I feel me being around will affect her and I never want that. Hope all the best for you.

 

[FailerQt.]

Yes, that is actually my main reason. However, my story is different. I managed to find someone very close to be a man of dreams. I said close because I am aware people aren't perfect (including me) and I learned to accept that. But I accepted his flaws just as much as his good points. We are from different countries but managed to meet up irl for 2 weeks. Everything seemed to be working fine. We got along beautifully, we enjoyed each other's company, we had a lot of fun, but regardless all of that the feelings from his side weren't mutual. Now I've lost all hope to ever talk to him again because he told me he'd file a report on me for stalking to the police if I ever try to contact him again, be it in 6 months, one year or 20 years.
I believe he was the one and I just can't keep going with the knowledge that I'll stay forever alone because I chose it's either him or nobody. Things that I used to enjoy and made me happy don't do that anymore, every morning I wake up disappointed that I didn't die in my sleep. I just can't wait when I'll have enough money to afford stuff for my chosen method. It's everything that's on my mind and can't wait for the sweet release.

 

[Black Rose Bunny]

i'm a 24 year old woman and i can't exactly relate to a lot of the relationship part since i generally am not too interested in one and don't really trust men. but i relate a lot to the loneliness part, i desperately wish i had people to be close to. ik people say it's just really hard to find relationships like that, but it genuinely feels like something is really wrong with me, i'm always trying my best to be genuine and kind but friendships never seem to work out

 

[eashanm]

If you want a person to be friends with or talk to, you can message. I don't exactly have a lot of friends myself and have dealt with solitude all my life. In solitude (along with stoicism and meditation) I've grown up to be a man. I'm 28 years old.

 

[leland]

Hello. This is my first post but I have watched this forum for a long time. I was just wondering if there is anyone here in a situation like mine. I am a 30-year-old woman and I didn't have a lot of romantic interactions in my early life. A few years ago I moved to a new country for work and started online dating. My experiences have been horrific and humiliating. I have not been able to establish a relationship in my 2.5 years of trying. I have had multiple instances in which I dated men for a month or so, and felt very strongly and they seemed to as well. Then we slept together and afterwards they blocked me on everything and never spoke to me again. I have lost all confidence in myself and feel completely undesirable and like I could never add anything to anyone's life. I am so desperate for any kind of affection or human touch that it almost feels like a physical pain. I am finding it more and more difficult to leave home and I know the end is coming because the urge to hurt myself badly is becoming stronger and stronger. I intend to hang myself but there is nothing in my apartment strong enough to hold my weight. That's the last piece of the puzzle.

Is there anyone else in a situation like this? I would really like to hear from you.

I haven't had much experience with dating sites, but my wife recently left me for another guy, so I can relate to desperately wanting human touch and affection. I've been alone now for almost a year and it's only getting worse. I've suffered from depression off and on since my teens and I'm in my forty's now. This last year has been the hardest of my life. I really hope you either start to feel better or can escape this awful place. I hope I can find the strength to ctb

 

[Ki_Nam]

No. Humiliation has happened to me before though. If anything, one thing repeated humiliation has taught me is to look back at myself and all the years that I've lived and HOW I lived them. It helped me realize that I'm not worth it, and there is no solution to fixing me.

 

[JudasIscariot]

I imagine it's a fairly common cause for prolonged thoughts of suicide, although this fact is not consoling, contrary to what most suicide prevention platforms reiterate.

 

[HopelessSoul]

26yo and counting so yeah, I promised myself I would CTB if I got to 21 without a partner, so it is long overdue.