Is anyone else tired of life?

[Red Moon]

Yep, nothing much is really enjoyable for me anymore and I wish their were easier ways to die.

 

[martinso67]

The thing that really makes me want to end my life regardless of my chronic or painful health issues that ruin my life.
The thing is that the life expectancy which I will have is too long. 60 or 85(nowadays) years to live is too much for me. It's like getting a life sentence in the worst prison for a small robbery.

I remember researching life expectancy and the death process of a modern human made me so depressed. Don't want to be a vegetable or spend my last weeks or months or years in a hospital.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Yes

 

[sserafim]

Yep, nothing much is really enjoyable for me anymore and I wish their were easier ways to die.

Literally. I wish they made euthanasia legal, but unfortunately, we live in a pro-life society so I doubt they'll ever legalize it...

 

[LaughingGoat]

The thought of doing it yourself is frightening, and you could always fail. I guess I'm just scared of actively taking action on it. I also have a fear of failing ctb and being left with permanent damage. It takes effort to go against nature and your biology. You have to go against SI to ctb

I hear that, SI is definitely the biggest hurdle to cross and I never encourage anyone to ctb, just do what they feel is best for them. Regarding the chance of failure, I would argue people who fail from slashing their throat make the mistake of cutting their jugular rather than the carotid artery, since you'll bleed out in a few minutes at most with a cut carotid.

 

[sserafim]

The thing that really makes me want to end my life regardless of my chronic or painful health issues that ruin my life.
The thing is that the life expectancy which I will have is too long. 60 or 85(nowadays) years to live is too much for me. It's like getting a life sentence in the worst prison for a small robbery.

I remember researching life expectancy and the death process of a modern human made me so depressed. Don't want to be a vegetable or spend my last weeks or months or years in a hospital.

Same, I don't want to live that long. I just don't want to get old. Life expectancy *is* way too long. My psychiatrist told me that most women in the US live into their 80s and this actually strengthened my desire to die young, in order to defy this. I don't want to live past 25. Life expectancy *is* like a life sentence. This whole existence is a life sentence to me

I hear that, SI is definitely the biggest hurdle to cross and I never encourage anyone to ctb, just do what they feel is best for them. Regarding the chance of failure, I would argue people who fail from slashing their throat make the mistake of cutting their jugular rather than the carotid artery, since you'll bleed out in a few minutes at most with a cut carotid.

How deep does the cut need to be? Should you cut both carotids at once? You press on them for night-night...I would do that but I don't want to die a bloody or painful death. Hence euthanasia being my ideal method lol

 

[divinemistress36]

Same, I don't want to live that long. I just don't want to get old. Life expectancy *is* way too long. My psychiatrist told me that most women in the US live into their 80s and this actually strengthened my desire to die young, in order to defy this. I don't want to live past 25. Life expectancy *is* like a life sentence. This whole existence is a life sentence to me

How deep does the cut need to be? Should you cut both carotids at once? You press on them for night-night...I would do that but I don't want to die a bloody or painful death. Hence euthanasia being my ideal method lol

Asian women seem to live a long time so put that age up to 90

 

[Helween]

i'm living tired, i go to sleep eff tired and wake up eff tired as well, i feel like my eyes wants to fall out, like a modern zombie actually.

How deep does the cut need to be? Should you cut both carotids at once? You press on them for night-night...I would do that but I don't want to die a bloody or painful death. Hence euthanasia being my ideal method lol

more than 2 cm(prolly 3-4) deep i believe, one carotide is enough to die usually.. but like you said it's an awful and bloody way to go.

 

[BlendedHeart]

How much did you experience? I had them all except guilt, only one or two times, I don't usually feel guilty.

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Is this chart saying that depression leads to sexual perversion, or am I misreading it?

 

[LaughingGoat]

more than 2 cm(prolly 3-4) deep i believe, one carotide is enough to die usually.. but like you said it's an awful and bloody way to go.

I agree one carotid would be enough, I would choose the left and tilt my head forward so the artery extends out. It will definitely be bloody and the initial cut would hurt like hell, but I think you would quickly become unconscious. I think the biggest mistake someone would make when trying to cut the carotid is hesitating and making shallow cuts first rather than one strong, deep cut. If you cut it right, SI can't save you.

 

[xinino]

Is this chart saying that depression leads to sexual perversion, or am I misreading it?

Yes, I think depression doesn't directly cause sexual perversion, but it can lead to changes in sexual desire, I have another diagram which is more logical and authentic

Diagram of symptoms resulting from disruption of the power process

Ted Kaczynski Diagram of symptoms resulting from disruption of the power process

www.thetedkarchive.com

 

[uzuf86]

I keep waiting to see if I'll feel better. But every day seems to be the same and depression feels heavy. I feel like giving up very strongly

 

[grungy自殺]

I don't like the traditional way of getting self help that's been set by modern society

If i wasn't given the compassion from it (life from those that you seen and knew before Like friends and acquaintances) why should i care about taking the steps to fix it for myself?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I've been tired with life since birth. I never liked living, not even during childhood. Why do people expect me to want to work and be responsible when I never asked to be here to begin with? I never wanted to live and I never will. I'll always prefer death over life

 

[sserafim]

Why do people expect me to want to work and be responsible when I never asked to be here to begin with? I never wanted to live and I never will. I'll always prefer death over life

Same. Life itself is my prison and I'm serving my sentence. I hate how I'm expected to work just because I'm alive. I didn't choose to be born, and I don't want to participate in modern day slavery. For me, it's NEET or rope. I don't want to be responsible

 

[BlendedHeart]

Yes, I think depression doesn't directly cause sexual perversion, but it can lead to changes in sexual desire, I have another diagram which is more logical and authentic

Diagram of symptoms resulting from disruption of the power process

Ted Kaczynski Diagram of symptoms resulting from disruption of the power process

www.thetedkarchive.com

Yes, that's clearer. Didn't realize that was made by the Unabomber. Don't care if people say he was crazy. That makes a lot of sense.

Boredom and depression may take you to extreme behaviors (Overeating, sexual perversion, etc.) It explains a lot

 

[Silent_cries]

I'm tired of everything tbh. Tired of constantly having to stress about something, whether it's my anxiety or psychosis or anything else. Not to talk about all the "rituals" I constantly have to do. I can just never get a break, there is always something going on inside my head and I'm so, so tired of it! I just wish I could be normal! Why was I quite litterary born with mental illness out of all things? (autism is considered a mental illness according to the textbooks something)
How is that even fair??? Why? Just let me die already!

 

[yellowjester]

Tired of this life that I'm forced to live, not tired of life as a whole.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Absolutely. In a way, it's my major reason for wanting to go. All I really do is work and maintain my bodily functions. It's not like I even particularly want a different life now either. Other variations have been just as shit, if not worse!

 

[greebo6]

Yep, very tired of it.

 

[dtkdave87]

I'm personally exhausted.

 

[Darkover]

well i would be programming and learning every day but i am dying instead at 30 years old life is shit then you die