Is anyone else tired of life?

[sserafim]

Life is exhausting. I honestly just want it to end already, without me having to put in any effort. Unfortunately, everything takes effort in this world. This fundamental fact annoys me. Why can't I just press a button and die? I wish it could be that simple…

 

[Hotsackage]

Tired of morons, and condescending asshats yes. Which is like 80% of the population.

 

[sserafim]

Tired of morons, and condescending asshats yes. Which is like 80% of the population.

I'm just tired of living in general. Every day is a chore for me, as well as a bore. I didn't even choose to be alive, yet it's hard to die. This is so unfair

 

[Eudaimonic]

Yeah, I'm very tired of life. I dread every day. I hate how much effort it is to CTB. Pro-lifers have made it even more difficult.

 

[Abyssal]

Consciously I'm not but I can feel my grip on reality tearing sometimes. It's telling me I've been here too long and that I'm mortal flesh

 

[sserafim]

Consciously I'm not but I can feel my grip on reality tearing sometimes. It's telling me I've been here too long and that I'm mortal flesh

I also feel like I've been here too long. I think that I was meant to die back in 2018. Nothing after 2018 feels real to me. It all feels like a fever dream

 

[terra.nuvo]

Yes, very much so. I wish I could just do the things I like to do everyday and not have to worry about things but sadly that's not how it is. I'm constantly worried about so much it takes everything out of me. It really is an exhausting existence.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I have been so tired for so long. Something is about to break. It seems like I never really rest even when I sleep.

 

[divinemistress36]

So much

 

[BlendedHeart]

Sometimes I get little sparks of motivation and try to do something with it. This week I had a long streak of that "hope", but it ended with a disappointing result, even after I tried different stuff, like every time, so this "life" deal ain't for me.

 

[xinino]

I'm just tired of living in general. Every day is a chore for me, as well as a bore. I didn't even choose to be alive, yet it's hard to die. This is so unfair

How much did you experience? I had them all except guilt, only one or two times, I don't usually feel guilty.

 

[sserafim]

How much did you experience? I had them all except guilt, only one or two times, I don't usually feel guilty.

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Boredom
Excessive pleasure-seeking
Insatiable hedonism
Tendency to depression
Frustration
Anger
Anxiety
Sleep disorders

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I'm more tired than an 18-wheel semi truck.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm more tired than an 18-wheel semi truck.

If I lay down on the road, will you run over me ???

 

[Abyssal]

I also feel like I've been here too long. I think that I was meant to die back in 2018. Nothing after 2018 feels real to me. It all feels like a fever dream

You get it! I throw around terms like "same" and "felt" a lot, but I get the sense you and I are truly talking about the same thing.

 

[tbroken]

How much did you experience? I had them all except guilt, only one or two times, I don't usually feel guilty.

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Me too and I also experience guilt.
But Imo we are all mad in this world and we all have these feelings.

 

[Circles]

I'm tired of being me. :/ I'm trying my hardest to hold my life together and my family also, but I feel it's just a flimsy house of cards ready to fall any moment.

 

[mtoro998]

Yeah its too much to endure cant wait for it to be over.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

If I lay down on the road, will you run over me ???

Too "tired" to do that

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Too "tired" to do that

Too tired to walk to the road anyway.

 

[LaughingGoat]

I am genuinely not stating this in a condescending manner, just curious what people on the site mean when saying it takes effort to ctb. I'm looking at the box cutter I use everyday for work, it's as simple as one cut across the throat. If by effort people mean the emotional preparation or obligations they have to others, I get it, just the act itself is as simple as it gets. People were doing it long before firearms or Nembutal were a thing. Looking to understand, no intention to attack anyone's feelings.

 

[EmptyHeaded]

Yeah. Life is work and I'm lazy.

 

[pilotviolin]

yeah im tired of having to fight to do shit that other people enjoy or dont think twice about. takes me months to build up to a bare bones "normal" person life and its lost in a couple of days.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I was for a while and sometimes I do fall back on it. These days now though, I'm just more tired of being tired.

 

[sad4dayz]

Me . In an unhappy marriage, unemployed, mental health issues. Just generally wanting to give up. Been accused of having a "victim mentality". Nah bro I'm just tired of trying anything and everything to improve my life and never finding happiness.

 

[tary]

Yes. I'm 31 and feel like I have nothing to look forward to besides working (if I'm lucky lol) and killing time, and I'm bored of both. I think typically people in my situation have children so they have something to live for and something to do, but I've known that I'll kill myself eventually since I was a teenager and don't want anything that'll tie me further to this world.

 

[davidtorez]

Definitely tired from everything. Tired of waking up every morning in physical pain. Tired of thinking when it'll end. Tired of thinking what other therapies are there out there to try. Tired of giving myself false hope that things will get better . All I want is too fall asleep and never wake up. It's all just pointless suffering because each one of us here will eventually die and were delaying the inevitable. So my rational brain keeps asking why prolong it if I can end it now ?

 

[sserafim]

Yeah. Life is work and I'm lazy.

Same. I'm too lazy to put in the work and effort, but I don't want to anyways. I don't want to live life. I've always felt like a ghost or background character, even in my own life. I was just kind of there and observing life. I don't want to have to actually participate in it

 

[iloverachel]

Definitely tired from everything. Tired of waking up every morning in physical pain. Tired of thinking when it'll end. Tired of thinking what other therapies are there out there to try. Tired of giving myself false hope that things will get better . All I want is too fall asleep and never wake up. It's all just pointless suffering because each one of us here will eventually die and were delaying the inevitable. So my rational brain keeps asking why prolong it if I can end it now ?

Agreed. Life is a disgusting pointless, torturous abomination

Life is exhausting. I honestly just want it to end already, without me having to put in any effort. Unfortunately, everything takes effort in this world. This fundamental fact annoys me. Why can't I just press a button and die? I wish it could be that simple…

Yes.
Been tired of life for at least 8 years.
I don't see myself ever enjoying life and not wanting to die.
Life is painfully boring, isolating, depressing, and not worth living.
I dream about dying in my sleep every day for so long

Life is exhausting. I honestly just want it to end already, without me having to put in any effort. Unfortunately, everything takes effort in this world. This fundamental fact annoys me. Why can't I just press a button and die? I wish it could be that simple…

Yes.
Been tired of life for at least 8 years.
I don't see myself ever enjoying life and not wanting to die.
Life is painfully boring, isolating, depressing, and not worth living.
I dream about dying in my sleep every day for so long

 

[sserafim]

I am genuinely not stating this in a condescending manner, just curious what people on the site mean when saying it takes effort to ctb. I'm looking at the box cutter I use everyday for work, it's as simple as one cut across the throat. If by effort people mean the emotional preparation or obligations they have to others, I get it, just the act itself is as simple as it gets. People were doing it long before firearms or Nembutal were a thing. Looking to understand, no intention to attack anyone's feelings.

The thought of doing it yourself is frightening, and you could always fail. I guess I'm just scared of actively taking action on it. I also have a fear of failing ctb and being left with permanent damage. It takes effort to go against nature and your biology. You have to go against SI to ctb