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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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I don't want happy but wouldn't say I want to focus on negative (eventhough I do focus on those). Just indifferent I guess . I don't care about feeling happy, sad, whatever. I only want death. I don't want to feel different, i want to be dead forever. So feeling won't matter then
Same here
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,792
No, in my case I'm not interested in existing at all, to me human existence will always be a futile and undesirable burden no matter what. I simply wish for non-existence, I don't want to experience anything at all, I don't see any point or value in being conscious and aware. For me the problem will always lie in existence itself, I really wish I never existed, it terrifies me how humans can potentially exist for so long.
 
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Pessimist

Pessimist

Wizard
May 5, 2021
676
I wonder, why don't you find happiness appealing? What does being more negative give you that happiness doesn't?
I don't know, it's a difficult question. It might be my comfort zone. I like to complain and listen to negative music. I also don't want to appear happy and friendly to other people.
 
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paredler

paredler

Student
Jul 31, 2022
191
Me. I kinda don't understand how I'm supposed to be happy when society is shit and the laws of physics suck ass. They kinda just want me to not express any feeling of pain and dissatisfaction.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,184
I prefer the word oblivious, but I get this
 
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pleroman

pleroman

Arcanist
Feb 22, 2024
458
It just means you value truth.
truth = all is hell
fiction = yaaayyy the universe is luvvvv
If love were the base state, we would not need to meditate/have extreme genetic luck/take drugs/work hard/stimulate certain neurons with extreme energy direction.

The base state = hell
 
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