Is anyone dreading Christmas this year?

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

Christmas is just about five weeks away and I'm already just dreading it this year.

I haven't had a good or fun Christmas since at least 2014 and goodness knows, for me personally, Christmas 2022 is looking like it will be as bad as the other ones. I used to love Christmas and all the fun things about it but, man, it's now a holiday I just cringe at when Halloween is over.

Is anyone else dreading this year's Christmas?

 

[harshbarger]

I used to love Christmas! My last good one was 2018. Not dreading it, it will just be tedious and whatever.

 

[jodes2]

It's nothing special for me. Just glad I've got buying presents out the way already. Thankfully my family don't make a big deal of Xmas at all so it's not a big obligation. Just another day of the year really :-/

 

[outrider567]

Christmas is just about five weeks away and I'm already just dreading it this year.

I haven't had a good or fun Christmas since at least 2014 and goodness knows, for me personally, Christmas 2022 is looking like it will be as bad as the other ones. I used to love Christmas and all the fun things about it but, man, it's now a holiday I just cringe at when Halloween is over.

Is anyone else dreading this year's Christmas?

It'll be a horror show this year, with both my girlfriend Patti, and my brother, now dead--Each Christmas for decades we would decorate our place both inside and outside---But There will be no decorations this year and no Christmas lights, all of our Christmas stuff I already threw away months ago....

 

[hungry_ghost]

Just indifferent to it, really.

 

[toasterbath]

I've been dreading it for so many years now that I guess it doesn't really phase me anymore.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

100%

 

[Insomniac]

if you're a teen or a college student I understand because it can be awkward.

but if you're an adult with your appartment, just lock yourself in with a bottle of wine and watch a horror movie/serie (avoid Christmas movies at all cost).

Chrismas can be so enjoyable when alone under your blanket a little tipsy with something good to watch.

Don't go to family gatherings.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just another day for me, it doesn't affect my life. Christmas is just commercialised forced optimism and is centred around false ideas about the reality of this existence. It's just people deluding themselves. There could never be anything worth celebrating in such a cruel world.

 

[lili]

I just get really high on edibles for the whole week and forget there's even something happening. That's what I did last year. Before I was really dreading being alone during it though.

 

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

It'll be a horror show this year, with both my girlfriend Patti, and my brother, now dead--Each Christmas for decades we would decorate our place both inside and outside---But There will be no decorations this year and no Christmas lights, all of our Christmas stuff I already threw away months ago....

Damn, I'm so sorry for your losses

if you're a teen or a college student I understand because it can be awkward.

but if you're an adult with your appartment, just lock yourself in with a bottle of wine and watch a horror movie/serie (avoid Christmas movies at all cost).

Chrismas can be so enjoyable when alone under your blanket a little tipsy with something good to watch.

Don't go to family gatherings.

Hotel for me, with takeout usually like Thai or Chinese

 

[theboy]

I'm afraid to be alive at Christmas

 

[DeathBecomesMe_2021]

Shitmas.

 

[Insomniac]

Hotel for me, with takeout usually like Thai or Chinese

hell yeah, a bedroom with a nice view. Sounds sooo comfy.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Yes. Poorer than I've ever been. But it's more just I'm older and my living situation sucks. It's just super depressing. I'm a middle aged older woman who failed at life. So now I get to watch other happy people enjoy their nice lives while I struggle with poverty, loneliness, boredom.

Shitmas.

Indeed.

 

[never mind me]

I don't care much about Christmas as I am not religious and I don't have a family. So I just ignore it and if my work schedule permits I go travelling around this time. If not I just take plenty of drugs and have a tower of books at home in case I get bored. But it's still annoying, because it's basically a week (between Christmas and New Year's Day) where there's not much going on workwise, but most of the time I can't really do much that I enjoy, because everything is closed and most people visit their families. Even travelling is difficult, because of inflated flight prices and bad weather in big parts of the northern hemisphere.

 

[Anon1337]

I like the festive atmosphere.

 

[Prescott241]

It's looking like this year will be my last Christmas, so fortunately I won't have to deal with the petrifying loneliness anymore.

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

Christmas is just about five weeks away and I'm already just dreading it this year.

I haven't had a good or fun Christmas since at least 2014 and goodness knows, for me personally, Christmas 2022 is looking like it will be as bad as the other ones. I used to love Christmas and all the fun things about it but, man, it's now a holiday I just cringe at when Halloween is over.

Is anyone else dreading this year's Christmas?

I am sooo with you on all of that. I loved Christmas as a child but now it's just extremely painful because of my very broken family & my very broken life. I get a depression hangover from it that lasts until Feb and like you, I cringe at when Halloween is over.

 

[Lost Magic]

It will be my 3rd Christmas without my beloved mother and uncle. I don't celebrate the commercialised version of it anymore, although I will celebrate it for Jesus (still the Catholic in me). My mother loved decorating the house and the tree. She loved cooking Christmasy meals and watching all the Christmasy movies. Tbh, I would love to just catch the bus around this time. I'm preparing anyway. If I do manage to get through it, then it will no doubt be my last. Sadness is an understatement. Although, it will be a relief to finally get it over with.

 

[Ashu]

I'm so comfortably alienated that when I was still living in my native Canada, Christmastime was just days like any other, I even used to enjoy taking a long walk round the deserted city on Christmas Day itself. Now that I live in India in a conservative Brahmin community, Christmas is all but invisible, and I am as alienated from Hindu and Muslim festivals as I was from Christian ones. For me as for many here, solitude has never been a cause of suicidality. My ideal life, if it had been possible, would have been a very solitary one, with one life partner and a few close friends.

 

[Judy Garland]

I'm not dreading Christmas at all. I remember why we have Christmas, for our Jesus who loves us. Our God. I've already been playing my Christmas music and embracing my Loves.

 

[BGooG]

I'm Jewish, so Christmas was never anything growing up (my dad use to make fun of it). But wife is catholic and Christmas has always been a special time for her, so I've always tried to get into the spirit. I like somethings. I like seeing the lights everywhere (I live in a major city, so things really can be quite pretty), I actually really like Christmas music (I'm a jazz pianist, and adore jazz Christmas albums), and food is always good.

But I also dread the holidays in general. My family has become dysfunctional, and so Christmas is just constant stress. I feel like my family is constantly disappointed, and I feel like a fraud because I don't have any real connection with the holiday (not that I have a connection with Jewish holidays either, mind you). I always end up just counting the days until I can go back to work. My suicidality actually gets weaker; I don't want my daughter to think of Christmas as the time her father died. So, I have until November to pray to die. After that, I want to make it to January.

 

[justwanasleep]

I'm done with Christmas I've told everyone last year and was my last one not because of suicide or they'd be on my back I just said because it's bullshit im not religious.
I've done a good job of isolating myself away the past few months so I won't be missed.
But on Christmas Day I'm going to stay at home and make my own afternoon tea I love doing that. It's weird how much satisfaction you can get from making perfect finger sandwiches and putting a few cakes on a stand it really does cheer me up. Good luck everyone

 

[SadScarlet]

I'm dreading it even more this year, as I lost the last family member that cared about me last week. I just don't care anymore.
I'll only be putting up a tree, because it's cozy and makes my house a little less depressing.

 

[Zegers]

Just one more empty season, like summer.

 

[Rocinante]

I have always disliked the holidays. Reminds me too much of my kitten that passed away on Christmas(a decade ago this year). Winter time comes too fast.

 

[DefiedOdds]

Very, I have been using so much energy to put on a face to reduce the worry of my family. Once Christmas comes that energy is going to be run dry. Its my moms favourite holiday and shes so happy for christmas this year. Yet for me I've spent the last 4 weeks consistently learning new methods to CTB and just been wishing to sleep and not wake up.

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

Yes dreading it and new years. Worst time of the year.

 

[whitefeather]

The sun is everything, and its gone now