Is anybody stuck without a way out?

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I'm just curious if there are any people on this site who don't have a method or a way out. I'm wondering, how do you cope with that? What allows you to not freak out and start clawing at yourself?

 

[Isolatedloser]

I don't have a way out yet or totally ready to end it. I'm trying to cope with video games, music, family (I'm lucky in that regard) and maybe skiing this winter I can't do something impulsive and hurt myself and just fail so I'm waiting until it's my time. I hope this helps in someway.

 

[persepexa]

My current situation. SN to me is the only method I find tolerable and I can't find it anywhere. I do want to CTB but to me it doesn't matter if it's today, or next week or even next year. I know my life isn't going to get any better. It's just going to be more of the same so I guess that helps me not to panic. But it is really frustrating. Like why is it so hard lol. If someone wants to CTB why are there so many barriers.

 

[Isolatedloser]

My current situation. SN to me is the only method I find tolerable and I can't find it anywhere. I do want to CTB but to me it doesn't matter if it's today, or next week or even next year. I know my life isn't going to get any better. It's just going to be more of the same so I guess that helps me not to panic. But it is really frustrating. Like why is it so hard lol. If someone wants to CTB why are there so many barriers.

SN is getting hard to find for sure. I'm sorry to hear that life won't get any better. CTB is hard to do and even when you do want to die Survival Instict gets in the way. I wish you peace.

 

[persepexa]

SN is getting hard to find for sure. I'm sorry to hear that life won't get any better. CTB is hard to do and even when you do want to die Survival Instict gets in the way. I wish you peace.

Thank you, same to you. It's just impossible. I can't find a job, every time I try to make a new friend I have to lie to them because the truth about my life is just too awful, I'm a shame to my family and a burden to those who love me. Like it's fine right now. I'm chilling in bed playing a video game and that's pretty much all I do which is fine but I'm almost 30 I can't just do this forever either.

 

[Isolatedloser]

I'm a burden to my family as well. I'm too much. Im listening to my favorite artists right now while I interact with SaSu. I'm young however and I could live longer but not sure the future is going to be better, not just mine but the whole world at large.

 

[Off_Switch]

There's always a way. We just have to take it.

 

[gottacheckout]

Part of the reason I started my collection as a young kid was because of that fear. I had extended family start dying and at that time it seemed really traumatic to me so I decided I needed to make sure I had a way out. Then my ocd took it over and that need became all encompassing. So now I'm sitting here with multiple ways to ctb and have a concealed handgun permit so I can find relief any time I want.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I only continue to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence as a result of painless, guaranteed death being a crime with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what and it's all so terrible and dreadful to me, more than anything I wish I never suffered.

I always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence so cruelly denied painless death, all I want is to permanently cease existing, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence, it truly is the most horrific anti-suicide world where humans are tortured so much until they die in agony from old age, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive.

 

[deadzombie6]

I don't have a way out either just living out of pure spite

 

[Arb]

Dont have a way out, the border security intercepted my way out and sent it back... (A SN package)

Ive been testing the ligature method though... Im getting better and better at constricting in the right place, hopefully that goes peacefully once I decide its truly time to go but I promised to myself that will be after my terminally ill friend goes

 

[justletmesleep]

I'm just curious if there are any people on this site who don't have a method or a way out. I'm wondering, how do you cope with that? What allows you to not freak out and start clawing at yourself?

I thought I was doing okay but I'm not. I'm not better. I'm still alone and pathetic. So not dealing with it well , but uni keeps me busy. I just have to hold on until after my exams.

 

[PI3.14]

I do have a method, hanging. I'm not stuck imo. I just need to manage my SI.

 

[jessisme]

I am q burden on my family and society also due to my mental illness. I haven't contributed for a long time. It makes me sad, self conscious and disappointed in myself. I have looked into each method here and ruled them out due to discomfort or inability except SN. I was able to procure some SN a few years ago but when I went to use it my Mom had thrown it out so now I have nothing. I can't get a gun because I have a history of mental illness and suicidality which prevents me from being able to acquire a gun in my state. My hands are tied at every turn. The situation is just hopeless as if it wasn't hopeless enough already. It makes me so sad. xo, j