Introduce yourself

[Alitaaqua6781]

Hi I'm alitaaqua6781

Mid 40s had de habilitating illness for a very long time. Due to that my health is poor and I don't have a job or partner. Still I've enjoyed things in life and I'm not a very unhappy person. I am just Ready to finish up my time on earth as things have only got worse and I'm noticing more issues with my health as I age that further reduce my quality of life.

 

[Volser]

I'm Volser. I'm 21. Been letting myself sink for years on the assumption that my CTB was always within reach, now I have to live a lot longer all of a sudden. I know I still have time and resources to turn my life around but at this point it's far easier said than done, I've shed basically all social skills I might have once had and I avoided developing key skills for hireability. Working on getting diagnosed with anything I might have, hoping meds will make some stuff better idk.

I like computers, programming, 3d animation, and video games, among other things. I like making stuff, feels really good when I actually finish a project and I'm proud of the result. I want to make some kind of art that gets me some kind of recognition before I die.

 

[spero_meliora]

hi all, sorry you're all here too.

I'm on the "wrong" side of 30, Irish, and continue to struggle with bipolar disorder and ADHD. I'm here hoping for recovery, but I'm also a little on the fence of what I want to do.

I love music, gaming, classic/older movies, and reading - and am always happy to talk about any of those. One of my goals of trying to reach out to others in the new year (and further recovery) is to join a tabletop group or two, and to write more music.

I've attempted numerous times - obviously I'm still here, so I can't help but wonder if there's a reason for it.

 

[FunkoGatito]

Hello
I'm not sure if I ever introduced myself here

I'm Alex and I'm 19. I also use Nova, Nox and XelL online.

I like arts and writing. I wanted to write a book someday. I also wanted to make children comics. I don't see that ever happening now. I love music. It's my favourite thing. Sometimes it's the only thing that keeps me here, going to music shows and playing bass.

I speak french and I'm from Qc, Canada. If anybody wants to be friends, feel free to dm me, I like talking to people.

"We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year." Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd

 

[Marsoff]

Hello. Aspie guy from Argentina, 26 years old and male.
Recently rejected at my DMV.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I am like a child and need guidance in life, and if not, I am broken… I suffer from fear of loneliness and am scared of blood, yelling, mean people, evil, being mean, feeling guilty and manipulated, I hate fire but love nature m, I wouldn't wish to live in nature though, I love being healthy, I love trying everything out, I have no identity when it comes to style and dieting, I love peace and working with others and getting to the bottom of something but I rather be to myself, I love to socialize but I am reserved by heart, I work alone but I enjoy watching others, I am a mediator, I am a daydreamer, I am protective, nurturing, loving, I love animals and soft things and arts and beauty, I am a follower and a navigator and have a pattern and system to things I enjoy, I need structure and a peaceful environment and space and love Mother Earth, the cosmos, the seas, loves colors, and love the beauty of the universe, but this world is evil and I am a emotional fighter and mess now, but I just wished I wasn't rushed and given structure to be in my own heart and navigate my own energy without it being damaged and destroyed to my very core conscious :(( my personality is sweet and delicate like a teddy bear and I am 21 before I ctb and I want to be loved… I love arts once again… but I'll just add I crave the feeling of embracing life again and being around open minded people and am very self aware and know I want others to truly feel loved and not forgotten and wish to exit this living hell

 

[neverself]

From what I've read it seems like it would be really hard to be trans in a Muslim country. It makes me sad to see how many users here are trans and how often life must be so hard in that situation. It's cool filmmaking is going well though, are you working on anything right now?

Not really I just started. I have some fleshed out ideas but I haven't came up with a script/story that can translate well into video. I hate being trans... it really sucks, my body feels like a prison, when I have nightmares in my sleep I wake up and wish I went back to them.

 

[Jadeith]

Hi. 40+ male, central Europe. In need of some advice/council regarding my take on exit bag modification.

 

[mayayo]

Hello, I'm mayayo. 24 going on 25, currently working a minimum wage dead end job. Might go to college this year despite knowing full well I don't plan on being around much longer. I'm a little socially inept, but hmu if you want to talk about hunter x hunter. I'm also obsessed with Elliott Smith, so there's that.

 

[HesAOk]

Hi y'all! I'm in my 30s and I just don't have anything to look forward to at this point. I had a job I really liked in music but I got extremely burnt out on it due to my ADHD depression, and intense emotional masking so I quit. Honestly, my life isn't in the worst place it's been so far but my early life was so fucked I can't really look forward to anything. I spend a lot of my time gaming, and writing music on the days when I can drag myself out of my bed.

 

[mayday]

hi im mayday. ive been on this site for years but never really talked much, it really helped me during some difficult times. im turning 24 soon and i find comfort in music so i listen to many genres and artists and have been doing so for years. i finished my bachelors so now im back in my hometown and i am completely alone here - everyone i was friends with left. i planned on moving to another country later this year in order to start a new life but in the end, i wont be able to do it. i struggle with a gambling and benzo addiction so i dont have any savings left to move away. life is hard when youve been suicidal since the age of 11. im running out of things to say.. i just want to be happy one day

 

[softlyn]

How's it going haha. I'm 26, from the western States.
When I was 20, I realized that my life was over while on LSD, and that hasn't changed since.
I'm mtf, but I lie to myself and live mentally as a man.
I like horror films (Texas Chainsaw, Last House on the Left, Dawn of the Dead) and my favorite manga author/artist is Jiro Matsumoto

 

[kalashnikova]

Hello, 18F from the East Coast.
Been struggling with depression & suicidal ideations since I was a young girl. I also have OCD and social anxiety. I'd like to make a friend before I.. well. You know.
I love philosophy spirituality, deep conversations, politics, discovering new music, films, poetry, reading books, true crime, fashion, and photography.

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

Heya, im just your average guy with trauma and social anxiety trying to recover and make my way back to society.

I love playing video games, as well as watching anime and reading manga. I also love music, it helps me relax and I love listening to one that I can relate and resonate with.

Im really shy when it gets to meeting new people or making friends, but once I get comfortable I become an absolute yapper. I also believe now that I could be bipolar due to how often I change the way I act, even with my closest friends (I literally yelled and insulted my best friend yesterday while we played CSGO, left the vc, started biting myself in anger only to join back after like 30 minutes and start joking with him).

Also, lack of time because of highschool is killing me like ong, I cant believe that I'll end school in 6 months. Im thinking about going to college, but I dont think Ill get accepted due to my grades being really bad, and if I have low % on my finals then theres no way ill get accepted to college.

 

[bullfrog61]

Hey everyone. I'm 23M, from the US. Living with my parents after college and slowly realizing my life is a joke. I like reading, music, working out and going for walks, video games, that kind of thing. Starting to wonder what I'm doing sticking around here. But in the meantime, I hope to get to know some of you and find a community here.

 

[human909]

I've been on here for quiet already but hello everyone, i'm just a guy that has severe social anxiety and on the autism spectrum. I have barely any joy anymore so i'm looking for a way to escape.

 

[eattwinkiesseejesus]

Howdy y'all,
I am a mom struggling with bipolar, BPD, and cptsd amongst other issues who's been struggling with suicidal ideations and self harm since I was 12. I've been married to an abusive narcissist for 8 years and have watched myself and my family get torn apart over and over again thru the years with all of his issues. A year ago I learned he had escalated his shenanigans and was living two lives behind my back, it decimated my already crippling mental health and I have spent the last year falling into disrepair. Last month I was IVC'd at a psych ward following another of his...tangents...and suicide has been on my mind constantly since being released. My last attempt was a few months ago, the mania I'm currently in says it's just a phase and I should be looking forward to life and making moves for myself and my children but deep down I know that's just the euphoria and that it'll never get better and my children deserve someone who can offer them the world...not broken trauma...for the sake of my family I'm here to find a tried a true way to remove my toxic existence from their lives.

 

[lilichka]

hi guys, im lilichka. i have struggled with depression, anxiety, suicidal tendencies, and all the other fun stuff since i was a preteen most recently i seem to have developed some form of ocd and schizotypal disorder. all things considered my life is pretty good, i am privileged and have a future set out for me but my mental health continues to worsen. every day my sanity slips away more and more. people say i dont have it so hard as them so i should have no reason to feel like this, i guess its true but i cant help myself from feeling this way...

besides these voices in my head, i am very passionate about literature and the humanities so if anyone would like to learn about these before i go feel free to talk with me. also a big fan of alt music, indie films, and football (fave team is fcb and miami) but i wont go into specifics right now. hope to make some connections with you all.

 

[cadfy1970]

Hi everyone I'm in my 50s, divorced I'm also very shy and quiet, I like sci-fi movies, video games and listening to music, i work in a dead end job but it gets me out of the house
Nice to meet you all

 

[Grey Worm]

hello im Grey Worm, 24 and a NEET with some flickering dreams of being able to make livable income from my art. my outlook on my life is constantly flipping everday. no clue how my brain ticks, the only thing ive ever been told I have is social anxiety disorder. never ever expected to make it to adulthood yet here I am.

Nina Hagen and Sheena Ringo are my heroes, if my mood was different when I joined I wouldve been named after one of their songs.

 

[KayLoves]

Hi!

I'm Kay(female), 21.

I do not have current plans to cbt, but am very depressed and have attempted before, I also do not mind if you do have cbt plans. Basically I am not far away. I'm from the UK, midlands area and would enjoy to meeting people similar to me. I'm a computer science student (failing), 2nd year. I like anime, games, love music and gigs. I also enjoy talking about controversial topics. My account is new however I have been a lurker for awhile with no account, so I am unsure if DM's are available for me but don't hesitate to message me!

Hey guys,

Noticed a lot of threads pop up with new members saying hey. To reduce clutter we have decided to make a welcome thread for everyone new to introduce themselves and for people to welcome them, basically merging all future welcome posts into this one.

With that said, welcome to Sanctioned Suicide, we're a pro-choice forum; make sure to read the rules and check the resource sticky out too!

Post your introductions here!

 

[JohnIgnis]

Hello, my name is John Ignis and I am 22 years old. It's both my real and not real name, maybe I'll tell how so when we become close. :P

I am currently a First Year College Student (I repeated 11th grade twice unfortunately) taking Computer Science and I like playing guitar and gaming. I already had a guitar before I was in 7th grade, but I wasn't really serious in playing or learning it at all. So after long years, I finally started becoming serious about playing guitar. I am practicing guitar more than ever these past few months compared to before. And for games, my childhood games are probably like everyone else that are around my age like Plants vs. Zombies and such, but games that actually stuck with me were Command and Conquer and Warcraft III. I would play Skirmish and DotA respectively in these games. However, unlike those that played these games back then, I never actually played with anyone on both these games, especially DotA which was supposed to be played with 9 other people (I was playing with the AI only back then). If you know DotA, I have the same build for all the heroes no matter what. I think my build back then consisted of Dagon and that item that makes your basic attack reduce the target's armor, and the rest were basically something that improves my basic attack. So, my favorite heroes were Crystal Maiden and Techies. Imagine me building a DPS build on those heroes all the time XD. So summer before 9th grade, I tried playing Mobile Legends (ML), which was basically like DotA, but on, you know, mobile. The change in environment was actually more noticeable now that I am actually playing with real people that time. And for starters, people would get mad at you when you have the wrong build for your hero. ML is also where I met my online friend and that was around 2-3 years ago. We have climbed the ranks together as a duo for countless days and nights. He was the jungler and I was his mid laner or roamer, roam mostly though. Then one day, he invited me to play Roblox. And the first game in there we played was Blox Fruit. I loved it and that was the new game that we had grinded for countless days and nights. Unfortunately, we rarely play together now mostly because I am busy with school works and the Dorm I am staying at (more specifically the room) has horrible internet speed. But right now, I am actually kind of tired with multiplayer games in general due to the toxicity and I'm no longer able to handle it anymore. Besides, my friend is playing another game that I don't like anyway. So, I'm gonna stick with single player games now. Might grind hours on Skyrim, Civ 6, Rimworld, or Warcraft in the meantime. I'm also highly considering playing Civ 7 when it comes out.

That's all for now, I'm practicing guitar after this. Have a nice day!

 

[sasu4444]

Hello. I have thoughts, but afraid to speak. I don't know if I'm right or wrong and wait to find out before using voice, but my answer never seems to come. Maybe I should help, but I've been wrong before. Maybe I can help, but I've been wrong before. Maybe I just fantasy being a hero.

 

[DarkestSoul]

Hello everyone,
I'm new here.
I feel sorry that you are here too.

I'm 29.
A haemophiliac.
depressed for like 12-15 years.

Have had many near death like experience but none of them succeeded as i'm still alive.

Recently (last couple of months)tried overdose method twice and failed and still recovered without any medical treatment or intervention thought it was slow and painful experience.

Currently i'm going for Night Method plus Partial Hanging or Falling From Height of more than 100 feet.

 

[lucretiareverie]

hi everyone!

you can call me lucretia. i'm a major art and history enthusiast. i'm a massive reader but i also enjoy less academic things, like omori.

i'm very new to this site so forgive me if i'm awkward. i joined to have discussions with people similar to me so i'll probably jump around forums while i'm here. my posts will be both serious and non-serious, depending on the day. either way, i hope to connect with you all.

 

[KinderEgg]

Hiii I'm KinderEgg. I'm 28 and I reside in Scotland. I have been dealing with suicidal ideation since I was a teen, it has since gotten much worse since leaving a six year abusive relationship. I am diagnosed with BPD and some other fun stuff. I mostly take comfort in music and video games as well as some other media. Nice to meet you all. <3

 

[frestarpumpkin]

Hi guys. new as of today. im 42, currently laying
in the backseat of my car, wishing I could get the night night method to work but it appears I need to work on something different. Thanks for adding me

 

[6lackstar]

Hey everyone, my name is sky and I'm 20yrs old.

I joined this site late last year but only started commenting recently, I just feel so comforted here weirdly.

I've been struggling with depression for as long as I can remember and I just feel like I'm in a constant state of limbo really.

I'm pretty introverted but the kind of person that doesn't shut up once I feel comfortable with someone.

I enjoy playing stardew valley and codm. I also like all sorts of movies, tv shows, books and anime :)

Really hope to get to know some of you!

 

[outofbounds]

Hello. I have been lurking here for a few months now and have been finding it comforting reading messages from like minded people. I have been coming to terms with the fact I will die at some point, and have become disillusioned with the "normal" belief that I should stay alive at all costs. As for my day to day life, it is not particularly interesting at the moment, partly due to my mental health, which has been all over the place for the past few years. It's mostly just work, and then coming home to watch YouTube or TV or play visual novels, and not socializing as much as I should. A little while ago, I was learning some Japanese by watching lots of anime, which I would like to go back to, but I am not confident I will ever reach a satisfying level.

 

[green eyes]

Hello, I am a 20-year-old man from Chile, I feel tired and sleepy all the time and it seems that I suffer from a phobia of dirt but only in my home it is more because of the relatives who live there who are a little dirty and I asked them kindly if they could please wash your hands more often but they simply ignored what I said. I love drinking tea but quite sometimes I drink 4 cups of tea a day and I'm already losing a little hope of getting better since this place where I live just keeps me always negative and nervous about touching anything outside my room, plus several people from this place have lied to me several times saying that they want to help me but then they talk bad behind my back and so the few that really help me and make me feel better are my aunt, my cousin, my grandmother, and a friend that I am very fond of. I would like to simply live somewhere else alone without being surrounded by people that bad but I have a hard time finding a good job since I haven't even managed to finish my studies. I'm very sorry yes some parts They are not understood since I used a translator and I also regret the length of the comment. Take care everyone and I hope you can be better and improve :3