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Jeklah
New Member
- Aug 23, 2024
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Hi everyone.
I struggle with dysthymia, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and feelings. I'm extremely lonely. I'm not the person I once was...I used to have friends, a social life...but now I've been cut off by everyone , even my family, becaus I talked about my problems. Not everyone wants to hear it apparently. I grew up hearing if you had problems talk to family and friends? So I did?
My issues started with me falling in love with a girl at school which I never got over. She was my best friend. I told her how I feel but she didn't feel the same.
We're still in touch.
I did meet someone else years later, after being friends with them on a forum for 10+ years they admitted they had feelings for me. We dated for a year. It was perfect. I went to USA to see her, she came to UK.
Then she stopped taking her meds and broke up, got a sex change, said she didn't want to date anyone ever again and then ended the friendship.
So yeah, that broke me. I told her I couldn't go through another heart break. She knew about the last girl. I don't know why she did it. Why we even dated. I just don't know.
Either way I'm very alone now, and it doesnt seem to look like it will change. Suicide crosses my mind often. I've tried a few times but never been successful.
Anyway..that's me in a nutshell.
I struggle with dysthymia, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and feelings. I'm extremely lonely. I'm not the person I once was...I used to have friends, a social life...but now I've been cut off by everyone , even my family, becaus I talked about my problems. Not everyone wants to hear it apparently. I grew up hearing if you had problems talk to family and friends? So I did?
My issues started with me falling in love with a girl at school which I never got over. She was my best friend. I told her how I feel but she didn't feel the same.
We're still in touch.
I did meet someone else years later, after being friends with them on a forum for 10+ years they admitted they had feelings for me. We dated for a year. It was perfect. I went to USA to see her, she came to UK.
Then she stopped taking her meds and broke up, got a sex change, said she didn't want to date anyone ever again and then ended the friendship.
So yeah, that broke me. I told her I couldn't go through another heart break. She knew about the last girl. I don't know why she did it. Why we even dated. I just don't know.
Either way I'm very alone now, and it doesnt seem to look like it will change. Suicide crosses my mind often. I've tried a few times but never been successful.
Anyway..that's me in a nutshell.