Introduce yourself

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

I'm Oxo.

I'm on the spectrum and and will die alone because of it.

Live in a shithole called Brasil

Metalhead and furfag

 

[Stargazing:<]

Hello! I'm Star. I am nonbinary and go by they/them pronouns. I had a really rough drug filled childhood that has left so many mental scars. I'm currently trying to get help for my issues but it becomes worse by the day. I'm open to chat and make friends for however long I'm here for!

Manga fan (I like anime too but I can just read faster than the pace of an episode)
barely a game dev/writer
dnb makes my brain brrrr

 

[Owl_07]

Hello everyone! I'm Owl, i'm 29 and I struggle with npd, bpd and other comorbidities. I have really fucked up my life from self destructing and destructing all the good relationships i once had. In the last year something has irreparably broken within, and becoming aware of all my miserability has thrown me into an unescapable abyss. The only solution left is ctb. Otherwise I liked to ride motorcycles, produce music, reading books, watch films, and going to clubs and raves. So glad i've finally found this community where to openly talk about our sufferings without the fear and the shame of feeling judged or misunderstood.

 

[yellowtin42]

Hello, I am new here. I've had a rough go of it for the past 20 or so years and I'm exploring my options. I'm greatly appreciative that this community exists and look forward to learning more from all of you while I am still here. Thank you.

 

[LucidStateDept]

Hey guys,

Noticed a lot of threads pop up with new members saying hey. To reduce clutter we have decided to make a welcome thread for everyone new to introduce themselves and for people to welcome them, basically merging all future welcome posts into this one.

With that said, welcome to Sanctioned Suicide, we're a pro-choice forum; make sure to read the rules and check the resource sticky out too!

Post your introductions here!

Hello! I'm lucid. I like anime, emo/mathcore/metal and make music, and I'm a chef. I've worked with animals as well. Mostly though, I just stay inside and realize that nothing is worth dealing with (unless it doesn't involve other humans).

>be born
>dope
>already have a sister so I got toys for days
>dope
>grow up in a shitty neighborhood
>not dope
>school is kindergarten- grade 12
>get beat up for Pokémon cards on the daily
>older sister protects me, sometimes
>get bullied lots, as chubby kids do
>find out parents kinda hate each other
>every christmas was a lie
>got n64 though so whatever
>dad starts making more money
>MoOoOOoooovin out the ghetto
>move to safe secluded neighbourhood
>start stealing their Pokémon cards
>just kidding
>everyone is sacred of me cuz I'm "hood tuff"
>have great middle school life
>new challenger approaches
>jr high
>my outer family starts dying off like fleas
>only see them once a year, not traumatized
>parents start drinking and fighting
>great school life, horrible home life
>mr popular at school
>mr hide in my fucking room at home
>new challenger approaches
>high school
>get deep into drugs
>full blown drug addict at 16
>fuckwithmenowdad.jpeg
>kicked my dads ass twice
>sister is angel
>her life story is on the Disney channel
>barely graduate
>sister moves to Thailand
> k peace
>try to CTB and succeed
>just kidding I woke up
>(5 years of foggy drug filled memories)
>get sober, but my mind is gone
>start going a little crazy
>full blown legal drug addict at 22
>start going a little...nothing
>ditch the pills, become a rapper
>release 3 albums
>go on tour across Canada
>start molding a life I can't mentally handle
>hermit mode
>lost my rap group
>lost my friends
>try to CTB, succeed a second time
>just kidding I woke up from that time also
>mom n dad hate me, I assume, who knows
>sister sippin mojitos in Thailand
>can't hold a job
>start selling drugs so I can afford a room
>I'm done selling drugs
>youprobablywouldnthireme.jpeg
>struggle everyday to not go postal
>stay inside all day so im the only one at risk
>self medicate once in awhile
>rinse and repeat for 2 years
>I'm done being a burden
>September 2018 set to be last month
>find this place
>make intro post
>reply to you
>leave out countless other things I don't even want to share with strangers.

Bro you have lived almost the same life as me. Except my sister was NOT awesome

 

[Cabron]

Hello everyone,
It took me a minute to find this introduction thread, makes me feel old I just wanted to say hi and express my gratitude for a forum like this one!!!

 

[HighFlight]

Hello from Finger Lakes region of New York!

Just turned 55 yo on Wednesday, and feel the quote about old age is evil is definitely true. My story is much longer than I'm sure anyone would care to read but problems started in childhood with an alcoholic father. Now, four decades later, I am left wondering what is left for me. No friends (social awkward), too many medical issues (my medicine cabinet looks like Walter White's), lonely, alone, with no purpose to life. Most days I feel like I'm just wasting oxygen.

I joined SS because I was moved by both the stories and people's responses. Thank you for sharing. Hopefully, this will help me decide my path forward - which is still to be determine.

 

[lea]

Hello!
I write using google translate, so I'm sorry if the text is strange.
I am from Spain.
It is the first time that I find my own opinions and "philosophy" in other people. Thank you for this.
I take advantage of this message a bit to ask about Spanish speakers, if they are there and if there is any thread/subforum in other languages.
Google does a great job, but I wish I could write in my own language. Would it be possible?
Again, thanks for all this.

 

[liljeep]

Hi!

I've struggled with suicidal thoughts for a decade and self-harm for a year longer than that. Other than that, I love doing research on psychology and pharmacology; and I love drawing, writing, and cartoons. I was raised by a single mom and am an only child, I really don't trust her or any of my family. Sorry if this is all over the place. I am not really sure what I should say in an introduction on a forum like this.

But anyways, if you want to message me, feel free! I adore Lil Peep and genuinely feel he is my guardian angel.

 

[thatinitiative791]

Hello. I'm 23, recently out of a job, not feeling particularly great about life. I've struggled with suicidal thoughts in the past but never had a safe space to express them, so here I am.

 

[suicidalloser]

i'm 27 and pathetic. no better way to describe me and my existence.

 

[meowzerwowzer33]

Hi I'm Kane, he/they pronouns, I spend my time doing nothing and wishing that I could just fade away. I hold on to whatever hyperfixation I have in order to keep going, current hyperfixation is Spider-verse. Executive dysfunction kicks my ass daily but sometimes when it doesn't I like playing videogames and drawing. I have 3 cats

 

[Ongoing_trainwreck]

Hi, I am Zoey 24 (She/They), from Germany, have pretty severe mental illnesses, and i am very new here... like... registered today. If you have Questions involving Trains... I am Traindriver, therefore an expert on this (and many other) topic.

I'd liked the wonders of the world, but my soul got crushed and shattered by humanity, and since quiet some time I'm beyond repair.
I am in therapy for 7 years now, and had many psychiatry stays.

Hi I'm Kane, he/they pronouns, I spend my time doing nothing and wishing that I could just fade away. I hold on to whatever hyperfixation I have in order to keep going, current hyperfixation is Spider-verse. Executive dysfunction kicks my ass daily but sometimes when it doesn't I like playing videogames and drawing. I have 3 cats

Feel you... I'm Zoey (she/they) and Executive dysfunction from my severe ADHD literally RUINED my life. I just want to say... as someone who has to battle with this too, i feel you.

 

[meowzerwowzer33]

Feel you... I'm Zoey (she/they) and Executive dysfunction from my severe ADHD literally RUINED my life. I just want to say... as someone who has to battle with this too, i feel you.

Thank you.. it is another one of those things that a lot of people don't take seriously and don't accommodate for, it's nice to have some solidarity

 

[liljeep]

Hi, I am Zoey 24 (She/They), from Germany, have pretty severe mental illnesses, and i am very new here... like... registered today. If you have Questions involving Trains... I am Traindriver, therefore an expert on this (and many other) topic.

I'd liked the wonders of the world, but my soul got crushed and shattered by humanity, and since quiet some time I'm beyond repair.
I am in therapy for 7 years now, and had many psychiatry stays.

Welcome! I have ADHD too, and have been forced off of my medication since I was forced to move here (1 yr and 3 months ago). I've also been on and off in therapy for the last decade and been hospitalized a lot of times. The only person I've met from Germany is one of my closest friends ^^

 

[Dindurnatha]

I'm Elz, (rhymes with "bells"), I'm aro-ace, agender, autistic, and adhd aka AAAAAA which, conveniently, also describes my life

I've been on the "i kinda wanna die but I'm too lazy to actually do anything about it" side of things for most of my life, but uhh. idk things suck, both on a global and personal scale and I'm Tired.

I cope by massive amounts of escapism (and questionable humor); i hope that when I die I get yeeted into one of my favorite fictional universes. In preparation for that, I consume a frankly ludicrous amount of fanfiction, mostly in the dragon age and hp universes.

Fun fact: My favorite movie is the matrix, and I literally watched it so many times during lockdown that I can quote at least half of it from memory with minor prompting.

 

[wristcutangel]

hellooooo !! you may call me an, short for angel. very unique, i know, i came up with it yesterday on a whim. i'm a lesbian! i'm non-binary as well i think, but that may just be trauma speaking. i'm fine with any pronouns. no professionally diagnosed disorders, although i heavily suspect bpd and autism, as well as potential npd. psychosis is almost a definite, although the cause isn't.

i am very very unstable, i've had suicidal ideation since i was around 8 or 10 at the very least. i live in an islamic country, so you can probably figure out where my problems start to stem from. i was searching up stuff like pro-suicide and suicide forum on google and stumbled upon a wikipedia article about this place and decided may as well, so here i am.

i'm meant to start college this year, however i might just repeat the year instead because i messed up pretty badly on the exams. well, i haven't gotten the results yet though. it would be nice if i could just die before i do, but that's just wishful thinking.

there's a lot more, but i'd like not to make this too much of a downer, so i'll keep it to myself for the time being. nice to meet you all!

 

[Druggy423]

Hey y'all,
I'm Sam, I like horror manga, my favorite is uzamaki by junji ito. And I disgust myself.

 

[ctb★prince]

hi!!! my name's naza, masc, audhd adult, im into so many things!! trust me just ask!!! i love new content so feel free to share ur interests w me if u dont have anyone to talk to abt them!!! my definitive fave thingz are animals, music and anything with a story really, sounds very vague but it is what it is!!!

 

[Eisenfuchs]

Guten tag. I'm Eisenfuchs. Since that's German for "iron fox"; you can call me "Fox" or "J".
I'm 24, male, agnostic, and have confirmed Aspbergers. My ex-friends think I'm a narcissist and bipolar, though my time in a mental hospital didn't give a conclusive diagnosis.
I'm a gamer, metalhead, car guy, photographer, and otaku.
I've been struggling off and on with self-destructive tendencies for the past 7 years; starting with an emotionally-abusive ex and culminating with all of my "friends" leaving me for dead when I was struggling with alcohol abuse. When I needed them most, they threw me in the trash right where i belong; and since then I've felt like there's really only one way forward.

 

[tramaj]

Hello to whoever is reading this. There isn't much to say about me. My uglyness caused my situation. If there is something worth saying is that you funny internet people are the reason why I still like talking to people.

 

[AriasRed]

Hello. I'm new here and was just lurking a little before deciding to say anything about myself. I'm AriasRed, 24 years old. I'm a transgender man (pronouns are he/him) and autistic. I have been suicidal since I was 13. Haven't really tried anything and I'm currently going to therapy + taking psychiatric meds with professional help. These have been helping with my situation. I'm also at the beginning of my transition from female to male. I love video games and horror stuff.

 

[zerose]

hi silly billys im ija and i rlly like kpop. pls dont bully me thxxxx <3<3<3 im just a silly little guy honestly. also stream in bloom tmrw

 

[Elle]

Hey everyone,

my nicknames Elle, I'm 20 years old. I have had and experienced many failed attempts, which has left me with trauma etc. I'm here to recover.

I'm into cats & dogs, I love drawing and I like watching YouTube!

I won't go into detail about what's gone on in my life, but I suffer from depression & anxiety, C-PTSD, and PD. I have a few health issues too which sucks but I'm hoping to get passed this.

Elle x

 

[purpleSkeleton]

Hi I'm purpleSkeleton. I'm 36 and struggling with life and the consequences of long lasting loneliness among other things. I like to escape via videogames, warcraft, Zelda, pokemon, and fantasize about their worlds. Love cats, I love all animals. To collect plushies too. And I will not leave my departure to old age or fate.

 

[Rah.]

Hey guys,

Noticed a lot of threads pop up with new members saying hey. To reduce clutter we have decided to make a welcome thread for everyone new to introduce themselves and for people to welcome them, basically merging all future welcome posts into this one.

With that said, welcome to Sanctioned Suicide, we're a pro-choice forum; make sure to read the rules and check the resource sticky out too!

Post your introductions here!

Hello, I am very new to this site. I have hopes that it will bring a clearance to me and help me find a way of peace. Whether that be death or new coping mechanisms.

 

[Lost-In-Time]

I'm AJ (21), am slowly losing cognitive processes such as short-term memory, awareness and time perception and it doesn't look good for me. I'm having real trouble falling asleep lately and don't know why, but I've been awake for 3 days after which I only slept for 5 hours. I don't know what the problem seems to be, but just so you know I'm not depressed or mentally ill, it's just unbearable at times and I need a safety net to fall back to if things go to shit.

I have a Diagnosis for ADHD and that's pretty much it. Hopefully it'll get better until then let's hope for the best!!!

Edit: Just so you know no I'm not taking my ADHD meds for a while now, so they don't seem to be the cause

 

[Petrichor]

I'm Petrichor, you can call me Petri for short if you'd like. I'm 19, she/they (idm other pronouns though). I have pretty bad insomnia and SH tendencies. I enjoy reading, playing games and drawing. Nice to meet'cha! <3

 

[fatalucia]

hello everyone i am new to forum-ing for the most part. my birthday is in 7 hours and 35 minutes from posting this. i wish i could have a cat for my bday but im too broke. i like journaling, writing letters, scrapbooking, and doodling. i hope everyone is having a good day

 

[TorturingHeart]

Hello, I'm a perpetually grieving artist, with an affection for late night reading, and day long music binges.
I've been dealing with depression most of my life, and with suicidal thoughts for half of that. I've survived 3 attempts but hey maybe my lucky number will be 4 after all?
I'm probably going to lurk a bit because I'm shy to a fault, but I'm happy to make any friends too. Misery loves company and all that...