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iwanttodie019

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May 4, 2025
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SN requires preparation,time to procure the substances but in case you were in a desperate situation like let's s ay you have been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and your next few years is going to be pure torture and so you want to die ASAP to escape the torture.
What method will you choose?
 
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lameemo

lameemo

autism +cptsd
Aug 16, 2024
31
Honestly, good old classic shot to the face. Or overdoes on heroin
 
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Yakui

Yakui

i stole some bugs to feed my refrigerator
Feb 4, 2023
1,932
if i had to do it ASAP? hanging.
if i had, like, a couple days? jumping.
and if i had more time than that, shooting.
 
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adamantc

Student
Mar 29, 2026
161
SN requires preparation,time to procure the substances but in case you were in a desperate situation like let's s ay you have been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and your next few years is going to be pure torture and so you want to die ASAP to escape the torture.
What method will you choose?
I have a lot of drugs prepared in solution, ready for injection. If I had to do it in hours (e.g. police coming after me), probably I would choose one that I can inject myself (without pump), and that I have obtained fairly recently (to ensure it works), such as isotonitazene (Early 2024, obtained as a powder and formulated into sterile injectable solution at home (using sterile and professional materials, of course). If I do not have the strength or willpower to inject (such as due to injury), I'd mix some powdered isotonitazene into a drinkable solution. I choose opioids and benzimidazoles as they typically don't need an anti-emetic or other drugs to be taken in combination, making the job easier in a pinch. Nitazenes also cannot be reversed by naloxone, unlike opioids, making them safe to use even if police/paramedics are in the vicinity.
 
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memo

Member
Nov 18, 2025
20
Hanging, helium hood is the fantasy i dont think I'm smart enough to pull off, firearm also an option just a lot of steps i don't have the energy for
 
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lameemo

lameemo

autism +cptsd
Aug 16, 2024
31
Honestly, good old classic shot to the face. Or overdoes on herion
How to access heroin?
Dark web, or local dealers. But I would buy a test kit as well and make sure it's pure
 
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xXSufferingXx

Enlightened
Feb 21, 2025
1,297
Or overdoes on heroin
i heard fentanyl has replaced heroin and that it's become extra hard to find heroin... some places impossible
 
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ladidabi

ladidabi

Losing all hope is freedom.
Mar 19, 2023
128
Partial hanging
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
221
SN requires preparation,time to procure the substances but in case you were in a desperate situation like let's s ay you have been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and your next few years is going to be pure torture and so you want to die ASAP to escape the torture.
What method will you choose?
I am getting desperate, and I think I'm going to go with PSH. I wanted to wait until next year when I'd be able to buy a shotgun, but I don't think I can wait that long
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Walk without rhythm and you won't attract the worm
Mar 27, 2023
368
Could just jump in a lake right at the beginning of winter before it freezes over; double-whammy hypothermia and drowning. This used to be my main plan, then I decided on a gun.
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
810
I have a lot of drugs prepared in solution, ready for injection. If I had to do it in hours (e.g. police coming after me), probably I would choose one that I can inject myself (without pump), and that I have obtained fairly recently (to ensure it works), such as isotonitazene (Early 2024, obtained as a powder and formulated into sterile injectable solution at home (using sterile and professional materials, of course). If I do not have the strength or willpower to inject (such as due to injury), I'd mix some powdered isotonitazene into a drinkable solution. I choose opioids and benzimidazoles as they typically don't need an anti-emetic or other drugs to be taken in combination, making the job easier in a pinch. Nitazenes also cannot be reversed by naloxone, unlike opioids, making them safe to use even if police/paramedics are in the vicinity.
i freaking wished i got get nitazenes through. its sounds so much better. but now with the new laws and even dark markets banning them .... its shit

atleast in NL its hard to get it. unless i miss a lot of clues that also possible
 
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fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
807
SN requires preparation,time to procure the substances but in case you were in a desperate situation like let's say you have been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and your next few years is going to be pure torture and so you want to die ASAP to escape the torture.
What method will you choose?
But Stage 4 cancer does give a person some time to prepare, right?

The problem with suicide attempts is most are not successful, and worst of all, some leave a person with damage and pain. That's why serious people on here research things and do planning.

If I had Stage 4 cancer, unless I was in horrific pain all the time right now, I would plan things out and do research. If someone has Stage 4 cancer, I'd also see if there were legal ways to get assistance with dying to make the process less likely to be painful or not work.
 
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2muchpain2

Specialist
Feb 27, 2025
330
my desperate ways are my planned ways too, but I would go with hanging if I had to do it immediately. After than I'd jump, and finally ctb by train. I actually am desperate right now. I'm suffering with chronic sinusitis for over a year and because of that, I'm much more desperate than I was in the past. Idk what to do.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
1,114
Hanging for me. I dont own a gun and its messy. I'm terrified of heights so wouldn't be able to jump.
 
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nightshade1

Member
Apr 30, 2026
15
I am in possession of three 100ml bottles of pentobarbital. I have the means and the method prepped, all I need is that one last BIG issue to push me over the edge. Honestly, if it weren't for the Effexor that I've been taking for 20+ years, I would have likely CTB a long time ago.
 
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LRkin

LRkin

Drowning in kumis
Jun 30, 2026
35
Bleeding, because you can carry a blade and a tourniquet even in a handbag. And they are cheap and easy to get.
 
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never mind me

Specialist
Nov 7, 2022
316
FSH, relatively easy to set up and reliable.
 
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kosameAmagai

Member
Apr 25, 2022
61
im gonna interpret this like "i MUST do it TODAY and i DONT have any resources such as any money"

first option would be: stealing a rope/shoelace or anything that could be used to hang myself, go to a forest and fsh.

second: jump in front of a train/subway.

third: climb an high abandoned or easy access tall building / bridge / whatever that would be atleast 30 meters tall and jump.

fourth (supposing i live in a coastal area): start swimming into the open ocean non stop until i get fatigued and drown or get killed by wildlife.

final (and riskier imo since you have good chance of being sent to a mental hospital or jail): suicide by cop.
 
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iwanttodie019

Specialist
May 4, 2025
394
my desperate ways are my planned ways too, but I would go with hanging if I had to do it immediately. After than I'd jump, and finally ctb by train. I actually am desperate right now. I'm suffering with chronic sinusitis for over a year and because of that, I'm much more desperate than I was in the past. Idk what to do.
hey what is chronic sinisitus and for how long are you suffering from this disorder?
 
Pangs93

Pangs93

Member
Jun 29, 2026
20
Bleed myself dry. That's my preferred method anyway. It was euphoric last time. My last moments before somebody just had to save me are still the best in my entire life. The aftermath not so great but next time I will make sure nobody is around in time.

Even if it weren't my preferred method, its quick and readily available. I keep a blade on me at all times in case an emergency exit becomes necessary. Its comforting to always have an out. Unhealthy for sure but thinking 'if this goes wrong, I can always CTB' has actually helped me more times than I can count.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Angelic
May 10, 2025
4,028
I was in a desperate situation in 2023,
after the sepsis and before the amputation,
the method I chose was jumping,
because I did not have the money to buy anything
 
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iwanttodie019

Specialist
May 4, 2025
394
I was in a desperate situation in 2023,
after the sepsis and before the amputation,
the method I chose was jumping,
because I did not have the money to buy anything
then how did you survive?Did you face any injury after failing the jumping attempt
 
Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,107
I already have a method that I think will work good if I use it properly. Carbon monoxide all the way.
 
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2muchpain2

Specialist
Feb 27, 2025
330
hey what is chronic sinisitus and for how long are you suffering from this disorder?
it's chronically inflamed sinuses, but it causes so many symptoms. It's miserable. Can get surgeries, but it comes back. Tons of meds, nothing helps.
 
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like-spoiledmilk

Member
Jul 10, 2023
69
I don't know if this is literal but I want to say just in case, at Stage IV discuss hospice care with your doctor. It's not assisted suicide, necessarily, but life-saving measures and treatment are rescinded with preference to comfort care (e.g. opioids. lots and lots of opioids). That's what I would do given the literal scenario, anyway.

Either way, I wish you comfort soon, OP. đź’•
 
NoFear

NoFear

Member
Jul 6, 2026
12
Bleed myself dry. That's my preferred method anyway. It was euphoric last time. My last moments before somebody just had to save me are still the best in my entire life. The aftermath not so great but next time I will make sure nobody is around in time.

Even if it weren't my preferred method, its quick and readily available. I keep a blade on me at all times in case an emergency exit becomes necessary. Its comforting to always have an out. Unhealthy for sure but thinking 'if this goes wrong, I can always CTB' has actually helped me more times than I can count.
What did you cut to almost bleed to death?
 

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