theboiwhostilllived
“The boy who still lived”
- Dec 11, 2018
- 62
That's all I can do, paracetamol for possible headaches.Brave
You think paracetamol will be enough for pain?
Yes, 6h remaining is a long time.Are you in the hotel already?
It should be enough. Stan's guide recommends the usual 1000 mg dose.Brave
You think paracetamol will be enough for pain?
Thank you for your kind reminder. When I think of backing out, I just don't know what I will do next if I want to stay alive. It seems like suicide is my only conclusion. Because there is plenty of time before midnight, I will vent abit.Remember, you don't have to if you don't want to. If you're having doubts, it may mean that you're still not ready; that there's still more of life you want to experience. I've backed out twice. There's no shame in backing out. Do what's right for you. Sending you virtual hugs and positive vibes.
Yes, thank you for your kind words.Wish I could be there to give you strength. You seem like a Harry Potter fan. Would have loved to chat about the books and movies with a fellow Potterhead. ^_^
I understand, wish you all the best too!Hello! I just want to say I wish you the best and I hope this comes out okay! Sorry, I'm not good at words. The point is that I hope everything goes well. I don't want you to feel like nobody's watching and doesn't care, if that makes sense! <3
Thank you@theboiwhostilllived, I hope this works out the very best way for you. I hope you don't feel pressured and that you'll put this on a back burner if you want to x
If you're having doubts, you can stop. It's not a contest or a challenge. I know you said you HAD to do this, but is your situation unrepairable enough that there isn't an alternative method you can take? I'm not trying to force you to stop by the way, because at the end of the day this is YOUR body and YOUR mind, therefore it's YOUR choice, and I can't wrangle you from Vietnam all the way from the USJust having hopefully my last meal (rice with seaweed and jelly). Start fasting. I don't know if I can go through it, feeling weird.View attachment 40045
Honestly, I'm abit curious and excited about the experience which will come next.
I expect you really do and are not like those who retract at the last minute.
Wow! I don't often find myself short of superlative, but after reading that, I do today. I'm really sorry to read about the pain you're in right now. I can only say this, from someone who's been there; hold on! Think about something you've achieved in the past and all the hard work and commitment it took to get there. I could be wrong, but reading between the lines, I can see someone strong, intelligent, kind and honest. I'll pray that you find that strength again. If things really do get that bad where you've done something daft, get help, stat! Reach out, get the support you need and rebuild one day at a time. I'll pray for you. Good luck!I'm currently on 48h-regime and will drink SN at midnight tomorrow. I create this thread to say goodbye and thank you to SS community. I've visited SS in 2018 and at that time I didn't acknowledge SN method, I tried hanging but failed miserably. Now in 2020 I've gathered everything I need (after quite a long time) for SN method and booked a hotel room. Thank you SS community for helping me with the method and being my last resort in my final days.
If you ask me whether I have doubts I would say suicide is not something I want to do, but something I have to do. I'm used to think that I was blessed in life and have many privileges but now I just cannot find the will to live on. I lost everything due to depression, anxiety and BPD.
I will keep updating my experience with SN here as long as I can.
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I expect you really do and are not like those who retract at the last minute. I wish you a lot of success with your "trip"
Shut it troll. I don't know what you're up to. I smell something fishy.I expect you really do and are not like those who retract at the last minute. I wish you a lot of success with your "trip"