Writing this because idk what’s going to happen

[Slimprofessional010]

I'm writing this because I don't know what I'm going to do. I've been going through so many ups and downs, broken promises and my mind waging war on itself. One second I'm okay and the next I wanna kill myself and blow my brains out with my gun. At this point I'm just still going because I have a fiancé but I feel like that relationship is also getting worse and crumbling apart because of me. I work 8 hours ever day to support us, I pay all the bills and keep a roof over our head but that doesn't seem to be enough. I'm supposed to stay awake for hours after work and cater to my fiancé when I barely get to sleep anyway. Her family hates me and constantly assumes I'm doing something bad or stealing which I e never done anyway. They constantly tell her to leave me and I can't tell if she is listening to them or not. I'm trying to keep everything together but I don't know how long I can keep up. I don't know what to do anymore. Thank you for listening to me.

 

[Nolongerlive]

It's always exhausting to become somebody's perfect partner. Just give yourself a break, be yourself. No one is perfect.
If people still think that you need to do this , be that to satisfy their unreal expectation. Maybe it's time to consider a new relationship.

 

[Slimprofessional010]

It's always exhausting to become somebody's perfect partner. Just give yourself a break, be yourself. No one is perfect.
If people still think that you need to do this , be that to satisfy their unreal expectation. Maybe it's time to consider a new relationship.

It's not even just that it's a whole bunch of stuff

 

[Nolongerlive]

It's not even just that it's a whole bunch of stuff

ok. Just give yourself a break. It's ok to be not ok.

 

[volo]

I'm writing this because I don't know what I'm going to do. I've been going through so many ups and downs, broken promises and my mind waging war on itself. One second I'm okay and the next I wanna kill myself and blow my brains out with my gun. At this point I'm just still going because I have a fiancé but I feel like that relationship is also getting worse and crumbling apart because of me. I work 8 hours ever day to support us, I pay all the bills and keep a roof over our head but that doesn't seem to be enough. I'm supposed to stay awake for hours after work and cater to my fiancé when I barely get to sleep anyway. Her family hates me and constantly assumes I'm doing something bad or stealing which I e never done anyway. They constantly tell her to leave me and I can't tell if she is listening to them or not. I'm trying to keep everything together but I don't know how long I can keep up. I don't know what to do anymore. Thank you for listening to me.

No. 1 is Sleep when u need to sleep. Sleep is a basic need, u can't keep going w/o it. You won't be able to work and keep that roof…