lovelydeath

lovelydeath

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Dec 5, 2022
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Everytime someone gets too close to me they pull away at what they find inside. This has happened time and time again. I get a taste of happiness and then its yanked from underneath me. Im unloveable at my core. I cant even be loved by rejects. Im a terrible excuse for a human being. I just want to end the cycle, to end this cosmic punishment. Im really sorry. Please give me sweet death. Please end this torture. I beg…
 
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SexyIncél

SexyIncél

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Are you comfortable telling us what's inside you?
 
lovelydeath

lovelydeath

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Are you comfortable telling us what's inside you?
Im barely human. I cant hold a proper conversation and connect with people intellectually. i cant show proper empathy. i cant make people feel good…
 
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Wish it all away
Apr 10, 2023
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You are most definitely worthy of love I'm sorry you are in so much pain
 
huftydumdum

huftydumdum

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Apr 10, 2023
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I hope life becomes more kind to you :heart: i know how this feels, just know you are always welcomed here
 
Lxions

Lxions

they/he
Apr 6, 2023
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Im barely human. I cant hold a proper conversation and connect with people intellectually. i cant show proper empathy. i cant make people feel good…
I understand how you feel, I completely lack empathy, I'm too blunt so I come off aggressive and rude, and I don't think I have much to offer. You mean something, you matter, and you deserve love. I hope you can find your peace
 
Netvor

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Mar 2, 2023
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You seem like a perfect fit wanna try befriending?
 
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NorthernMonkey

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Apr 6, 2023
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Everytime someone gets too close to me they pull away at what they find inside. This has happened time and time again. I get a taste of happiness and then its yanked from underneath me. Im unloveable at my core. I cant even be loved by rejects. Im a terrible excuse for a human being. I just want to end the cycle, to end this cosmic punishment. Im really sorry. Please give me sweet death. Please end this torture. I beg…
I hope you don't mind me asking but how long do these relationships last before they fall apart? This might not be you, but sometimes people can share too much too soon. You need to really take your time getting to know someone and only share what's inside when the time is right. You are talking to kindred spirits on here, but out in the world most people would run a mile if they knew what was going on in our heads :) Most people don't think like we do, they can handle it, but just not all at once. Let them get to know the good bits first. You are most definitely loveable and are already loved more than you know, I guarantee it x
 
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lovelydeath

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I hope you don't mind me asking but how long do these relationships last before they fall apart? This might not be you, but sometimes people can share too much too soon. You need to really take your time getting to know someone and only share what's inside when the time is right. You are talking to kindred spirits on here, but out in the world most people would run a mile if they knew what was going on in our heads :) Most people don't think like we do, they can handle it, but just not all at once. Let them get to know the good bits first. You are most definitely loveable and are already loved more than you know, I guarantee it x
I didnt say anything about suicide this time but maybe I was sharing too much. Thank you. But im not good at conversation so its hard not to just say whats on my mind. And i was having so much fun talking about myself because i wanted them to know me. Also I think maybe im boring? If I had a solution to these things maybe I would try again with new people but idk… i think maybe my mind is just insufficient.
 
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Apr 10, 2023
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I'm sorry you are in pain, You deserve love and support 💛 I have the same issues of feeling barely like a person and i'm not very good at real conversation because I just talk about myself. But i found a friend that listens to what I have to say and with the help of a therapist I have learnt how to listen and talk to them too. me and my friend have been together for almost 2 years now. Real friends will be patient with you and guide you if you make a mistake. not leave you and abandon the relationship. Your mind is perfectly good and you can make good, healthy connections with people you love. you just have to come across the right people. have hope!
 
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Apr 10, 2023
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you are worthy of love. And you will undoubtedly get it one day. In the interim, you could maybe look at a few things that you believe would improve your chances in that area. For examply, using forums like these to help with your shyness, build-up self-confidence or figure out better what is more socially acceptable to discuss (as someone said, the average person may find it a bit difficult to relate to us which could be off-putting... i figured this out the hard way a few times lol).
 
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lovelydeath

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I'm sorry you are in pain, You deserve love and support 💛 I have the same issues of feeling barely like a person and i'm not very good at real conversation because I just talk about myself. But i found a friend that listens to what I have to say and with the help of a therapist I have learnt how to listen and talk to them too. me and my friend have been together for almost 2 years now. Real friends will be patient with you and guide you if you make a mistake. not leave you and abandon the relationship. Your mind is perfectly good and you can make good, healthy connections with people you love. you just have to come across the right people. have hope!
You found someone that would let you talk about yourself????😭 i need this… cause i have a hard time talking about anything else unless its like deep philosophy stuff about human nature which probably also turns people off. this is really inspiring thank you. Its also inspiring to know therapy can help with this. but i need to know how rare people like that are. like will it even work trying to find them…
you are worthy of love. And you will undoubtedly get it one day. In the interim, you could maybe look at a few things that you believe would improve your chances in that area. For examply, using forums like these to help with your shyness, build-up self-confidence or figure out better what is more socially acceptable to discuss (as someone said, the average person may find it a bit difficult to relate to us which could be off-putting... i figured this out the hard way a few times lol).
I need to take a class on what is socially acceptable to discuss fr fr

Thank you so much everyone for helping me. I LOVE you guys. Please continue saying things if you have anything to add because its helping so much😭
 
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NorthernMonkey

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Apr 6, 2023
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If you think about what you are saying, you only really like talking about yourself, imagine how your friends feel. Most people like talking about themselve, it's human nature. So you need to learn to share the conversation and try to get to know the other person by letting them share their feelings too. Me, I hate talking about myself, I'm too private, so when someone starts asking questions I just swerve answering by asking about them, because most people just love talking about themselves, I pretend to be interested and just say hmm or yeah or the odd really, how interesting. Everyone thinks I'm a good listener but really I'm just a shiit talker!!
 
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lovelydeath

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If you think about what you are saying, you only really like talking about yourself, imagine how your friends feel. Most people like talking about themselve, it's human nature. So you need to learn to share the conversation and try to get to know the other person by letting them share their feelings too. Me, I hate talking about myself, I'm too private, so when someone starts asking questions I just swerve answering by asking about them, because most people just love talking about themselves, I pretend to be interested and just say hmm or yeah or the odd really, how interesting. Everyone thinks I'm a good listener but really I'm just a shiit talker!!
Yes I know. Thats the problem. I cannot talk about anything else. But thanks for making me feel worse for something i cant fix i guess.
 
Riu

Riu

Clueless
Apr 5, 2023
82
I want to be your friend, but I don't really know how to be a friend 🙃
I would be really boring to be around so that's unfortunate. I understand how you feel though, I can relate.
 
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NorthernMonkey

Student
Apr 6, 2023
120
Yes I know. Thats the problem. I cannot talk about anything else. But thanks for making me feel worse for something i cant fix i guess.
I really didn't mean to make you feel worse. I just mean try faking it. It just isn't realistic to just talk about yourself all the time and expect people to accept that. If you aren't interested in what they have to say, just try to act like you are. When you find true friends they will be genuinely there for you, and you for them. I understand more than you know, it isn't easy working out how to be social when you are struggling.
 
Myers

Myers

I just want a hug please.
Apr 15, 2023
29
I'd be down to listen to your problems , you can add me on Discord If you'd like.
 
scamper

scamper

Nice to meet you
Mar 31, 2023
66
Everytime someone gets too close to me they pull away at what they find inside. This has happened time and time again. I get a taste of happiness and then its yanked from underneath me. Im unloveable at my core. I cant even be loved by rejects. Im a terrible excuse for a human being. I just want to end the cycle, to end this cosmic punishment. Im really sorry. Please give me sweet death. Please end this torture. I beg…
People leaving when they find out who you are, being unlovable,
Im barely human. I cant hold a proper conversation and connect with people intellectually. i cant show proper empathy. i cant make people feel good…
not being able to deeply connect with people, trouble with empathy....

It's like I'm looking in a mirror talking to myself. Thank you for sharing what you've been going through, it seems like we're really alike. I know this is an older post and you don't seem too active but if I can help you at all please let me know.
 
lovelydeath

lovelydeath

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Dec 5, 2022
64
I'd be down to listen to your problems , you can add me on Discord If you'd like.
Thank you! Am I able to dm yet? If so please DM your username <3
People leaving when they find out who you are, being unlovable,

not being able to deeply connect with people, trouble with empathy....

It's like I'm looking in a mirror talking to myself. Thank you for sharing what you've been going through, it seems like we're really alike. I know this is an older post and you don't seem too active but if I can help you at all please let me know.
Im not sure how i can be helped. My friends showered me with love and compliments when I left but then stopped messaging me again a few days later. Maybe you can help me figure out how to gather the courage to kill myself.

I want to be your friend, but I don't really know how to be a friend 🙃
I would be really boring to be around so that's unfortunate. I understand how you feel though, I can relate.
I wanna be your friend too! but I worry we will have trouble talking. Im kind of a nerd with very niche hobbies, and I worry finding friends outside of those hobbies will make it even harder to speak. But i dont know.
 

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