seulgibeqr
Member
- Mar 29, 2023
- 9
Just me venting lolol
I've been on this earth for almost 20 years now. Next month I will turn 20. I have achieved nothing.
I dropped out of school when I was 17 due to depression. I have no qualifications. I don't have any friends, just people online that I occasionally talk to. My social anxiety is preventing me from getting treatment. I do have a psychiatrist and I take antidepressants, but none of them have worked so far.
My father is chronically ill and I should do so much more in the household than I do, but I can't. I'm just so tired, physically and mentally. I just lay in my bed all day and occasionally clean the kitchen and the bathroom.
My dad is so stressed. I have a little sister, my dad is really stressed because of her too. I'm the oldest, my sister obviously looks up to me and I should better myself, but I don't have the energy to do so.
My dad has threatened to throw me out of the apartment several times now. Honestly I wish he would.
I know that when I'm gone, my dad will be a lot less stressed, one problem less. I know he will be sad. He will get over it eventually.
It's just constant arguing. I'm so tired.
I've been on this earth for almost 20 years now. Next month I will turn 20. I have achieved nothing.
I dropped out of school when I was 17 due to depression. I have no qualifications. I don't have any friends, just people online that I occasionally talk to. My social anxiety is preventing me from getting treatment. I do have a psychiatrist and I take antidepressants, but none of them have worked so far.
My father is chronically ill and I should do so much more in the household than I do, but I can't. I'm just so tired, physically and mentally. I just lay in my bed all day and occasionally clean the kitchen and the bathroom.
My dad is so stressed. I have a little sister, my dad is really stressed because of her too. I'm the oldest, my sister obviously looks up to me and I should better myself, but I don't have the energy to do so.
My dad has threatened to throw me out of the apartment several times now. Honestly I wish he would.
I know that when I'm gone, my dad will be a lot less stressed, one problem less. I know he will be sad. He will get over it eventually.
It's just constant arguing. I'm so tired.
↕. I have worked before actually (at McDonald's, I'm not sure how lolol). Sadly I'm not very mobile, I only have my feet and a bus I could take. I live very off grid so there's nothing around me. I'm actually going back to school in late August, if I'm still alive by then. 
