Venting I'm tired of being the one who isn't allowed to stand up for themselves

[beyondbreath]

I feel like I was just put on this earth for people to push around. I was put on this earth and forced to concede to everyone all the time no matter what. I'm just so tired, SO TIRED of always being the one who has to compromise, who has to take it but isn't allowed to dish it out, who gets everything they say misinterpreted and taken in bad faith, who is NEVER allowed to stand up for themselves unless I want consequences.

Literally from the time I was a kid this has been an issue and I'm 27 now. You might say, well just don't let people walk all over you. But whenever I try to stand up for myself, in any situation, I'm always the bad guy no matter what. I wish I could just seclude myself from the world and people. I'm tired of being the scapegoat.


That's all.

 

[Redacted24]

Yes! This totally.
At office, others manipulate the boss to get their way often at my expense. When I talk with the boss about it, or to give my side, I'm told off or not believed - even though I can demonstrate that they have misrepresented the truth.

Domestically, my abuser accuses me of doing all sorts of things deliberately to harm her - but the things she accuses me of doing are what she's perpretrating against me. And I'm certain she's shared her version to many others that know me - none of them have asked me about what's going on (because they avoid me)

I'm exhausted being invalidated every single day.

 

[beyondbreath]

Yes! This totally.
At office, others manipulate the boss to get their way often at my expense. When I talk with the boss about it, or to give my side, I'm told off or not believed - even though I can demonstrate that they have misrepresented the truth.

Domestically, my abuser accuses me of doing all sorts of things deliberately to harm her - but the things she accuses me of doing are what she's perpretrating against me. And I'm certain she's shared her version to many others that know me - none of them have asked me about what's going on (because they avoid me)

I'm exhausted being invalidated every single day.

I feel this whole comment so much. It's like we were put on this earth as a punching bag for others. It's exhausting, frustrating, and just annoying.





I am 0% intimidating which doesn't help either. No amount of muscle or tattoos or whatever would make me intimidating either.....I'm just naturally a carpet for people to walk all over I guess.





I don't know why I even bother saying anything anymore. To anyone. Things only seme to go smooth when I shut my mouth, smile and nod regardless of the situation. And it contributes to my SI because I'm so tired of this constant invalidation