Im the worst human in this world

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

No matter what, im a completely mess, i don't even know how a person like me can exist, i fail even ctb, living for let others see how to NOT become and make their day better laugh at me

 

[Holu]

No matter what, im a completely mess, i don't even know how a person like me can exist, i fail even ctb, living for let others see how to NOT become and make their day better laugh at me

Uh oh. I was actually gonna ask earlier if you failed, since Ik you sent a goodbye. I'm sorry for whatever happened regarding that.

Also, while it's true that people might laugh at you, I'm just saying now that they aren't real people. Ik saying this is not gonna change your perspective on how people view you, but honestly it's a good reason to just further your bitterness for humanity.

And take a second to take a deep breath about the failed attempt(I'm assuming it's from lack of courage but I'm not sure). It's not an easy thing, and it will take a few tries, be it to talk yourself into or to actually succeed. If you need to, take some time to further prepare for your next attempt, whether it be planning on how to prevent your SI from winning, or to simply muster the needed strength.

And hey, while it's not the best sanctum, we are here for you while you're still kickin. Let us know if you need anything okie.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Uh oh. I was actually gonna ask earlier if you failed, since Ik you sent a goodbye. I'm sorry for whatever happened regarding that.

Also, while it's true that people might laugh at you, I'm just saying now that they aren't real people. Ik saying this is not gonna change your perspective on how people view you, but honestly it's a good reason to just further your bitterness for humanity.

And take a second to take a deep breath about the failed attempt(I'm assuming it's from lack of courage but I'm not sure). It's not an easy thing, and it will take a few tries, be it to talk yourself into or to actually succeed. If you need to, take some time to further prepare for your next attempt, whether it be planning on how to prevent your SI from winning, or to simply muster the needed strength.

And hey, while it's not the best sanctum, we are here for you while you're still kickin. Let us know if you need anything okie.

Im completely hikikomori lost all hope, im spending all my time try to hang myself.. i have to find this dammit courage to kick tge chair i just droped again without kick

 

[painful existence]

Survival Instincts are a bitch.I myself haven't even mustered the courage to do it once due to my survival instincts and I have been through worst of hells.There is nothing to be ashamed of.This is something natural and you don't have control over it.
I also suffered a lot because I cared a lot about what other people thought of me.However when I reached rock bottom I said fuck them.I started doing opposite of what was expected of me .Their opinions are worthless.
I read about Diogenes the Cynic and I was greatly inspired by him.(You can search about him on YouTube)
It might not be easy to change your thought patterns.It would take you months of constant practice but in the end it would be worth it.
I purposefully dress in worst possible clothes and go outside sometimes.People laugh at me and even though it hurt in the beginning.However now I have stopped caring.It has helped me a lot.You should have zero value for the opinion and validation of others.It only brings misery and pain.