Venting Im such a confusing person!!

[seeweed]

I dont know. My parents are good people (i guess. Its just that they were never emotionally there for me.) sometimes I wonder if Im just overreacting. I feel like im too goddamm sensitive sometimes! They could be absolutely doing nothing, and I would get mad whenever they talk to me! Do I have issues? Am i really the problem?? Everytime i see other people happy with their parents, i feel absolute disgust stir within me. Is it directed towards them? Or me? i cant get angry, I cant be sad, always policing over what i do! Theyre physically there, but so mentally and emotionally absent. I once opened up to them and they told me i was getting influenced. I opened up. I wanted for your help! I dont want to receive criticism when i need empathy! Understanding! This whole house that should feel like a home only feels like a cage. Its like im stuck in a never ending nightmare. Im just confused. Everyone confuses me. I confuse myself. I confuse everyone. I wish i was sure about something for once.

 

[awfullymorbid]

Relatable. I don't know why I feel this type of resentment. I'm guessing this is what emotional neglect does to a person? I have the same questions as you honestly, I kind of just accept that I'm the problem. It's weird seeing everyone be so loving towards their parents when all I feel is anger.