Venting I’m still alive.again

[tapewormsinthestool]

I guess the random user who messaged me that I'll have bad luck on my ctb date because mercury was doing. Something astrology related.I honestly don't remember. was right about 1 thing, because I fucked up just not being able to get actual rope and my noose snapped!! I cant believe it. It's like everything is doing all it can to keep me here so I can suffer more. I've just been marinating since just trying to get another date where no one would be bothering me, or around to stop me. I don't want to be here. I dont get why that's so much to ask for

I have a lot on my mind but I have no idea how to word it like I used to so I guess I'll just keep this post at that