Riverz
Member
- Feb 14, 2023
- 19
really didnt think I would be here today.... I shouldn't be here today. I didnt want to see the sun rise or have to eat another meal, or to be here making this damn stupid post.
I had a plan, maybe not the best, but it seemed like it had a good rate for success.
I was so ready to just disappear.
Everything went to fucking plan other than one thing. Why did my friend reach out then? Of all times, why did it have to be then?
I didnt hear anything from people for weeks, thats what I wanted. I needed to Isolate so fucking bad. Other people are the only thing that stand in my way.
I dont know why I told him anything. I should have just kept my fucking mouth shut. I dont know why I made a cry for help. Im so fucking stupid for doing it.
I would be gone right now, I SHOULD BE GONE RIGHT NOW! people always complicate things........
Now everyone knows. Its gonna make it even harder next time.
Do I really want help?
I still have my backup plan. I wont let them take it from me. Its all I have.
I swear im such a fucking drama queen.
I fucking hate this world, I have no place in it. LET ME OUT!
This was my final message from my account after I survived my second attempt at ending my life. This post will probably be moved to recovery because none of the moderators of this website want to see anyone here get better. Just know that the community will continue working with you to make it easier to reach your end goal of suicide.
I had a plan, maybe not the best, but it seemed like it had a good rate for success.
I was so ready to just disappear.
Everything went to fucking plan other than one thing. Why did my friend reach out then? Of all times, why did it have to be then?
I didnt hear anything from people for weeks, thats what I wanted. I needed to Isolate so fucking bad. Other people are the only thing that stand in my way.
I dont know why I told him anything. I should have just kept my fucking mouth shut. I dont know why I made a cry for help. Im so fucking stupid for doing it.
I would be gone right now, I SHOULD BE GONE RIGHT NOW! people always complicate things........
Now everyone knows. Its gonna make it even harder next time.
Do I really want help?
I still have my backup plan. I wont let them take it from me. Its all I have.
I swear im such a fucking drama queen.
I fucking hate this world, I have no place in it. LET ME OUT!
This was my final message from my account after I survived my second attempt at ending my life. This post will probably be moved to recovery because none of the moderators of this website want to see anyone here get better. Just know that the community will continue working with you to make it easier to reach your end goal of suicide.
