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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I could've done simple things that would have benefited me, but I didn't do anything but getting drunk and I procrastinated as usual. Maybe I hope for things to get worse to have it easier to CTB .... I hate it. It fucking sucks.
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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mehdone

Mortician
Oct 10, 2023
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Hell, no judgement here. I spent decades intentionally making bad life choices in the hopes that it would kill me if I couldn't manage to do it myself.

I'm drunk too. :P

And I can say from experience that doing things that might benefit me? Yeah, those are some of the hardest things to do- for that very reason. Because making life potentially better? That means it is harder to die.
 
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SnakesButNoLadder

SnakesButNoLadder

"Don't trip on what is behind you" • UK
Jan 15, 2024
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I'm the same (minus the alcohol).

Life just feels like such a mess. I've got a plan to get better, but never am able to complete any of the simple tasks I set myself. I've got motivation therapy ( state provided ) but I still struggle.

I look back on my days rhetorically asking myself "what did I do that day". I just waste my time procrastinating and ruminating.

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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
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I was prescribed antibiotics well over a week ago, maybe even two. And I only got an far as picking them up last night with no intention of actually taking them. 🤷
 
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mehdone

Mortician
Oct 10, 2023
316
I was prescribed antibiotics well over a week ago, maybe even two. And I only got a far as picking them up last night with no intention of actually taking them. 🤷
This. This is self destruction.
Real hard to turn that around, isn't it?
 
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Unknown21

Enlightened
Apr 25, 2023
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I could've done simple things that would have benefited me, but I didn't do anything but getting drunk and I procrastinated as usual. Maybe I hope for things to get worse to have it easier to CTB .... I hate it. It fucking sucks.
It's such a hellish cycle, being in the survival mode every day is really sucks, i don't do anything all the day but browsing this forum and tik tok, Reddit...etc. I wake up to waste my day and go back to bed, lmao.

Life doesn't make sense at this point.
 
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