Venting I'm sinking again

[helicoptero]

I need a hug or anything idk

I thought I was doing well after the breakup but these last days have been hell, it hurts a lot not having him by my side. Nothing makes sense anymore I just can't keep going like this. I sh again yesterday after many years clean, all that effort went to the trash... All in vain...

My therapist is ignoring me and it's hurting me so much. I won't see them anymore but we haven't had our last appointment and he's acting very weird ignoring me or not replying as he did before and it's hurting me a lot specially in this hard shitty moment

I can't think straight, the only neuron I got isn't even working anymore, I stopped eating or sleeping or If sleep all the day... I feel so lost laying in my bed being dead weight to my parents... I can't keep going like this

I'm so sorry I feel I'm an useless person that just wastes oxygen or takes resources other people needs more, I'm very sorry

 

[mysticatedwine]

your therapists sucks and you deserve a hug. you're not a waste of oxygen nor resources, and its not your usefulness that defines you. if anything it's this world that's useless and breaks its people

i appreciate you collecting the strength to vent here, that makes you not useless to me if that's something
i wish you well